so frustrating *tear*

[wordsthatkill]

i dont want to be the person of my past.
im changing.
i need to change in order to be happy.
im not happy ne more.
i cry myself to sleep.
i hate thinking about what ive done.
i never used to be like this.
i want my innocence back.
i want to redo it.
but life isnt about what you want, its about what you need and what you need to do to get where you

Comments

[megbabem]

I hope you don't mind me responding. Everyone makes mistakes and while it is true that you can't go back, you can go forward. The past is the past. The important thing is that you recognize the mistake and change. That is why we have the atonement, so that we can have a second chance. You are a good person and that is more than most people. It hurts now b/c of what you have done, but that pain is what will keep you from doing it again. Over time, it will lessen as you fulfill your end of the bargain with Christ, by truely professing how sorry you are and changing. You need to learn to forgive yourself, though, and realize that you are on earth to make mistakes and grow from them. Christ will forgive you and now you need to forgive you. I have made bad mistakes too that were very painful. The toughest part is forgiving yourself