Last night was the Apocalypse and it was a really good night. Got really scared when people turned up who i didnt know but i recognised some faces from high school. Definatly the best night that has happened in ages i reckon. Emms and Ross i am very dissapointed in for not being around and having a good time, cos basically knowone can without them ( Read more... )

Really feeling pissed off and shit at the moment. I'll update later when i stop feeling depressed and wanna kill myself.

Been really pissed off today. God i hate work so much it makes my want to bleed from my asshole. The Mole getting sacked and the managers at work has just totally ruined my week. Just made me feel so shit and its only 3 days now till Apoc. I felt like not going to Apoc earlier cos i'm so pissed off but i've relaxed a little now. I really need ( Read more... )

Went out last night round D-Man's to celebrate his parents going away with a bit of EVO and bit of T.V. Emms, Child and Mole were round too and had a good time. Emms suggested that we watch Teen Big Brother which was as shit as the ordinary Big Brothers. Tonite the Tesco crew went to the Farmhouse as we do every Tuesday now, Emms, Sam, D-Man, Child ( Read more... )

I really dont know wots going on in my life any more. Just don't know wot i'm feeling or experiencing. Just dont know wot to do in certain situations. Things are so alien to me cos i havent done them before, thats why i'm so scared. I feel so fucked up, i just hate not being in control or confident enough. I want to be a strong confident person but ( Read more... )

Had an absolutely lovely evening with D-Man. We went to the Crown Point chippie in Martlesham who have some great chips in there. We were just talkin bout how great the Apocalypse is gonna be, which it fucking will i'm tellin ya. Work was shit as usual, probably cos i'm still so tired from my sleep challenge. I lasted till 1 in the morning which ( Read more... )

Extreamly long day today. Started work at 6 this morning, but thats not the thing that bothers me. Its the fact that i didnt get any sleep at all. None. Not a wink. I got out of bed yesterday at around two o'clock in the afternoon and havent slept since. Dont know why i couldnt get to sleep, probably just got loads of things on my mind. So aswell ( Read more... )

Went out tonite with the tesco crew, ie Emms, Sam, Rossy J, Chrissy D, Bevan, Sarah, Mole and honorary member Kiwi, who we all love to bits. Didnt say much again tonite, think Rossy J and Bevan were counting how many words i was saying all night, wouldnt suprise me. Just not really enjoying being in big crowds at the moment probably why i didnt go ( Read more... )

Cant be bothered with anything anymore. Cant be bothered with this fucking internet shit, cant be bothered to talk to my friends online, nothing against them its cos it gets so boring. Cant be bothered with anything in life. Just wish i wouldnt wake up some mornings (well, usually afternoon).Just going knowhere in my life, i just feel that i have ( Read more... )

Had a lovely night out at the farmhouse, with tom, paul, d-man, kev, my bro (aka the mole), sam and Child (aka Big J). Was good, had some drink which was rather tasty. Didnt really talk bout work which was good cos we usually do when we r out on social occations. Been a pretty lazy day as usual. Done sod all. Been feeling pretty alone just recently ( Read more... )