been like for ever since i even considered writing in this thing. so much has happened in this life of mine. wouldn't be able to write it all down even if i wanted to. still missing everyone, still feeling a little lost on this side of the map.

let's see.... same job, different friends, different girl, same stress.

AT THIS TIME I WOULD LIKE TO STATE TO ALL OF MY STATE SIDE FRIENDS THAT MY BROTHER IS OK. "OK?" YOU ASK. YES.

HE IS A VERY BLESSED BROTHER, AND WE ALMOST LOST HIM. SEEING AS THOUGH I DON'T DO THIS OFTEN. I'LL FILL YOU IN.

HE FELL FROM 7 STORIES AND LIVED. AIN'T THAT AMAZING. GOD IS GOOD.

JUST FILLING YOU GUYS IN.

sigh. even more.

how's life folks? everything treating you guys ok? i hope so.
anyways, life over here is getting to me. like really getting to me. girls, money, friends. all of it is getting to me. jeez. a guy can only take so much of the same.

sigh.

so i lft off on money. i think you got what i was trying to say. now friends. what can i say about friends..... they are friggin hard to come by. the thing is the word friend is used so freely. and it can be hurtfull. there are work friends, who aren't really your friends, they are just people you have to get along with to make the day easier. then ( Read more... )

so we made it through to another new year. we count our blessings and pray that we don't make the same mistakes from last year. we see this as another opportunity to improve on ourselves. even though we might stop and stumble along the way, we must get back up and continue on. we must persevere ( Read more... )

merry christmas everbody

blahhhhhhhhh. sigh. that's how i feel right now. like blah. just ate some sweet bread. and that was the highlight of my day. sad, i know.

well it seemd that i'm doing a lot better. i've gotten over this slump and moving on. doesn't make sense to let that incident hold me down. i should only learn from my mistakes ( Read more... )

the more i think about what is going on right now the more i just want to collapse. i mean who doesn't want one. i've always wanted one. always. i won't lie and say that i wasn't prepared for it but damn. i mean it didn't have to happen like that. and can't even bring myself to tears. i want to so bad. i feel like i'm going to burst but they just ( Read more... )