oh.my.god. i just killed a fucking cockroach. last week we had to get these bug bombs because we were starting to get roaches, and i thought we got them all. this is disgusting. not to mention our fucking toilet is clogged, we have NO fucking counterspace, we have no area for our dishes to dry. i can barely cook without turning the kitchen into a ( Read more... )

i hate murfreesboro. i hate whoever designed the roads/parking lots for murfreesboro. i hate the people in murfreesboro. i hate how this apartment is falling apart. i hate how i have to start college. i hate how i didn't get to enjoy my last summer before college in the town i grew up in. i hate not having friends. i hate getting frustrated. i'm ( Read more... )

i woke up at about 5:15 and couldn't go back to sleep, so i've got the news on and i might make me some pancakes. this is nice. i'll probably crash in a couple of hours, but i like this. it reminds me of being back home and getting ready for school, my mom would always have the news on channel 5 and be making be breakfast ( Read more... )

i'm reading how everyone's all excited because they're leaving home and summer's winding down, and i'm over here hoping August 25th never comes so i don't have to start school! i don't want to start college. i really really don't. i'm so intimidated by how freaking huge mtsu is, especially compared to western because western had been my first ( Read more... )

someone hit my car the other day, barely scratched it, but their insurance gave me a $574 check to get it fixed. which i'm not going to. i need that money. plus you can't even tell! i'm pretty sure that it was meant to happen because when i went to the bank to deposit the insurance check and my work check, i had only $8 in my account. i have no ( Read more... )

so as of this morning at about 6:30, i am unemployed. i called my boss and told her that tj and i had a long talk (no, it took about 2 seconds to decide) and he doesn't like me working 12 hours a day (that's true, and neither do i!) and i'm too young for that kind of job right now. she said if i decide i want to do part-time, i can ( Read more... )

it's sunday. tj and i came back to clarksville today. my mom fixed me fried chicken, mashed potatoes, homemade biscuits, and green beans. it was delicious and she made me cookies to take home which fucking rules. she got me pancake mix and syrup and midol to take with me too. it's crazy how we didn't even get along while i lived here but now i miss ( Read more... )

my job is okay, but the hours suck. i work for 12 hours. i come home, have so much shit to do, like laundry and stuff, and on top of that i have to study some marketing techniques for work! i'm so stressed right not. i just... i just want to be able to relax. but i'm working 6 days a week and it just... goddammit, one day i don't have a job, i can ( Read more... )

i got a job with a company called KDL Marketing. I have to dress up since it is an office job, and it's so cool. I enjoy getting up in the morning just because i know i'll be able to look cute but professional and business-y at the same time. paid training for the first two weeks, and i'll make $700-$1000, depending on how i do. so even if i end up ( Read more... )

my dad won't even tell me he loves me. i called him and at the end, said "okay. i love you." and he said "alright, bye." and hung up. god, why do i still think he's superman? why do i still care? i've dealt with that kinda shit for so long now you'd think i'd be used to it.
but it still hurts. every time.