kiss the rain - billie myers
i
lost in space - the lighthouse family
miss
eternity - robbie williams
you
hello - lionel ritchie
tonight
hurricane - natalie imbruglia

insomnia

i can't sleep alone for i am alone and nothing is right, i am not safe, and then is the ache. when not alone i can't sleep because i need to soak up every moment we have togethr, that feeling f lying in bed together, even if i am the only one awake.

i have no sleep since christmas, bar one or two nights. i am falling apart.

today has been a day that has hurt worse than hell. everyone (but one) around me is making it obvious that i am stupid, unintelligent and plain, not worth the space i take up. i can't do the work, i shall never be a genius and i pretend like i don't care but it drives me crazy. i need to be good at one thing, only one thing that i can feel secure ( Read more... )

bought a pack of illicit love hearts. tingly on the tongue.

there were innuendos amonst the genuine sweetness. they may be clichés but once in a while they are nice to hear when meant.

so many wondeful sayings, apt and true.

when u need a lift they are so wonderful.

the best 10p spent on days when the sky is black.

<3

how can you see into my eyes like open doors ( Read more... )

His words! so beautiful!

An IM conversation, about words lost, led to the beauty that i can never match.

I am surrounded by specialness with the most special closest, i cannot help but feel overawed and jealous, just looking into his eyes i can see the sparkle.

After all the coal i have posted it is nice to see a diamond in the ruins.

i can ( Read more... )

Sneaking up behind her in Waterstones, always fun to make her jump. Not always that satisfying considering how easily it can be done but the fun factor remains. Bus was late so was nearly three quarters of an hour late. She was on the second floor looking down at the door I should have entered a while back. She didn't notice me enter the store, a ( Read more... )

'I cannot cope on small bubbles of happiness in an otherwise sad air'
i can never be so beautiful, not ever
he is so much better than me. he deserves better. and if he wants me still, i hope he does, then he deserves that i give him what he needs.

no i shall search myself to see if i can be what he wants, or at least what he needs.

when it's hot ( Read more... )

i've lost all the things i used to take for granted, just when i needed them the most.