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I think I love him. Which is giving me perspective that the last time I thought I was in love there was a reason I was so freaked out by it. I'm not freaked out this time. Just excited. I can't stop smiling! -
yay new relationship
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WW
I just joined weight watchers. I have been feeling myself gaining weight and feeling gross. Trying on clothes the other day didn't help. I'm excited about this, I've been tracking my food on peer trainer for the last year pretty regularly, but the lack of community (ie. being held accountable) does not help me. On peertrainer I was in a group and ( Read more... ) -
watching tv online
I'm watching Lipstick Jungle, and I like and dislike it. What's weird is that one of the main characters, Nico, talks like me. It's strange to see a fictional character doing and saying a lot of things that I say! But one thing that bothers me is that when bad things happen, they usually get better or resolved pretty fast within each episode. Also ( Read more... ) -
boys
The boy is covered from neck down in tattoos, plus one on his head. It was hard to tell if he was interested there were moments of manners, holding the door for me, getting my beer. We both seem to have a similar dry sense of humour. I find myself wanting to get to know more about him. When he left last night he said we should hang out again and ( Read more... ) -
Manual Labor
We'll see after my time at Yestermorrow, but I think I might kind of like a life of manual labor. Although farming and such wouldn't really lend to travel as much as I would like- but perhaps I can do sabaticalls, take a full season off? And it's not like I want to farm animals... I want to farm food- mostly for myself. I started reading my Basics ( Read more... ) -
breakdown looming on the horizon, unles I can nip it in the bud
Am I just kidding myself. Do I actually hate my job? I dread leaving Brooklyn right now. It is so nice out, I was just walking down the street thinking “The last thing I want to do right now is get on the subway”. I hate that my job has me sitting at a computer all day. I want to be on the construction site. Or designing something. I don’t want to ( Read more... ) -
The fling is flung and the prefling is flung too but he doesn't get what it means to be flung
I want a Kong premiere so I can see him again, the man who played Kong. Who I slept with, twice (once in the evening once awake and sober. Then the next night he decided to sleep alone. For reasons he didn't share. Sex to early and he loses respect. He still thinks I'm awesome, perhaps it's just the distance. But I guess I'll never know. Unless ( Read more... ) -
inchoate dreams
This morning I had strange dreams... I dreamt that I had a dream first of all- or perhaps I woke up between dreams and it carried over. The dream that I dreamt was that the world was coming to and end, global warming has invaded my sleep- I was on an island with my mom, brother, step dad and some other family I think and we were scared of the ( Read more... ) -
hurtin
fuck you for wanting to be my friend. you were my first love. I told you I was scared and you said it was ok. You told my family they would definitely see more of you. only to break up with me like 2 weeks later. I am afraid to date someone else now... I don't like being alone, I miss you, but no one wants to be with someone who isn't over her ex ( Read more... )