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[writteninstone]

There are these situations that linger in my mind; these ideas that are so built up that it's nearly impossible for the reality of them to not bring me down. These places that I go to, these dreams and memories, are what tear me apart when I try to sleep at night. The fact that I have slowly come to rely on these thoughts and sugarcoated scenarios

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[5oo]

i like how you put a period mark in the subject line

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[writteninstone]

I don't want anybody to ever be a surface level friend...I hate that. And I'm sorry if you feel like you're on that level. I may be quick to invest in romantic relationships, because I suppose I get excited and anxious about them because not many people come along that I'm truly interested in (in that way), but I have a very hard time getting past a certain level with my friends. Keeping them at an emotional distance feels safest because of the friends I have had before, possibly. I feel that maybe I'm getting better with it because I feel closer with more people now than I ever have before, and I would like you to know that I consider you a better friend than most. You are very unique and special to me and I would never just clump you with everybody that I know. I consider you my friend Grant and I'M grateful to have had someone so different, caring, amusing, and mysterious in my life.. And thank you for always letting me know how special you think I am, I take it to heart everytime.

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[5oo]

yeah, i was not blessed with the ability to say exactly what i mean. Im just not good with words is the problem. I didnt mean to make it sound like i feel as if im on the outside of a good friendship looking in. No actually you are very inviting and accepting and more so than most. For that i thank you very much. I think what i meant to say was that if you didnt keep me at some distance i would just fall into you like a deep ocean and never come up. And when im around you thats exactly what i feel like doing. So i think that the level of our friendship is entirely healthy, appropriate, and fufilling. I just meant to say that sometimes i want more Sam.

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[writteninstone]

well thats very flattering so thank you very much Grant