clearly i'm not ready to date yet.
i just want the nightmares stop.
i don't want to see jose anymore, not even in my head.
just wish it would all go away so i could go back to my life.

i really want a boyfriend again :(
but i still don't know if i could handle it which sucks.
i'm glad ryan has gone on to find a girlfriend, but i kinda wish it had been me.
same with tarrick. but they're both just young freshmen, what do they really know about a relationship?
if only my prince charming would find me already.

so i realized something last night ( Read more... )

i feel like every aspect of my life is falling apart ( Read more... )

OMG!!! my ex-boyfriend is so full of shit! who the hell does he really think he's fooling?! does he not understand that the rest of the world has access to the internet and can see he's lying??!! so glad to be rid of him ( Read more... )

just saw some pictures of jose...he looked really cute in them...
fuck why was he such an asshole to me?!!!!!
i never want to see him again.

you guys always know just how to make me cry don't you?..

I'm so confused. i don't know who i am anymore ( Read more... )

so it has been about a month since the official break up ( Read more... )

so i'm thinking about going to see a counselor or therapist or something of those sorts. i can't move past the jose incident. i haven't been able to sleep at my apartment since he showed up here, i terrified that he's going to be in my room every time i open the door, i continuously think i'm seeing his car in the parking lot, and now that there ( Read more... )