what am i doing ... really? destroying everything i love because i can't let go. i want december back. i had everything i ever wanted. and one bad choice led to another and neither of us will take the step away from eachother in the right direction. the love of my life told me he would marry me in a second. heart breaking. i am so fucking lost. i ( Read more... )

Well it has been a long time since I have updated this page. My life is pretty amazing right now. I went on a really bad run last year after my last post. I had alot of issues I was not willing to deal with. However, Things have evened out and I am doing alot better. Some how along the way I have met the most amazing boy in the world. I guess ( Read more... )

ouch.
sorry to everyone.
especially my sister.
xo

I have a new sense of gratitude at the moment. I have spent too much time over the last year or so trying to please people, hold myself together, and to stay strong. I have tried to give off the impression that I can handle everything both good and bad, and just keep going like a good strong girl would.I have kept a smile on my face for show. I ( Read more... )

ok so i only have like 5 friends on this stupid little journal..and i come on here at least five times a day....my sister and teege update the most....AT LEAST THEY USED TO!!!!!! ....so everyones assignment is to start posting all the time....that way i can read happy things while i isolate in my room ( Read more... )

Actually felt semi happy this week twice!! crazy right? I was supposed to go to LA with my sister, patrick , and teege on Thursday, but noone was really up for it, so we had a sleep over at patrick's house, and I was happy. The people and their friends in that house, although kinda weird at times, are really fucking chill, and they are always ( Read more... )

Super tired ( Read more... )

You don't know a thing about me ( Read more... )

All I know ( Read more... )

So after years of being alone and refusing to compromise for anyone and being un- willing to change for anyone...I gave in....and I made changes and tried really hard to be the person I thought that I should be ( Read more... )