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[wrytrz_instnkz]

So, second day. Whoo! One day at a time. I already lost a pound. That's crazy. I think the heat is helping. By the way, it's cooling down. It's a lot cooler tonight than it was last night. I was actually freezing in my shorts

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[mellyjc]

I can definitely relate to your struggle. We're supposed to forgive...but sometimes that can just leave us feeling so hurt.

From my experience, the relationships always come to an end. It's just a matter of who ends it. When I've hung in there until they did, I ended up feeling stupid, and what's worse, resentful.

The time I was sort of the one to end a relationship, I still didn't get the closure I sought (though I tried..the fact I couldn't was a result of the unhealthy relationship) but there was something to be said for the feeling of actually standing up for myself and what I needed.

I think God does want us to listen to our needs and take care of ourselves. We are more useful to him emotionally healthy than distracted or feeling bad/sad/embarrassed/sorry for ourselves.

[wrytrz_instnkz]

thanks for the words, Melly. Yeah...girl, it's so hard. I'm just gullible, as a person. I easily believe people when they say they're sorry and when they say they're going to change. And then I trust whole-heartedly, then I get hurt.

I don't know. I'm reminded of what Jesus told Peter when Peter asked Him about how many times we should forgive our brothers (ironically, my issues are all with male friends, brothers): seventy times seven.

*sigh*

By the way, I'm just like you. I usually hold on until they let go and, like you, I feel hurt (I think it's 'cuz my ego's been bruised). But oh well, I know something good will come out of this since I'm just trying to do what He wants me to do.

[mellyjc]

Yea, I know. That one holds on to me, too. But I think there is a difference between forgiveness and being someone's toy to abuse. Jesus is supposed to be the only one who uses us, we're not supposed to let others control us like that.

I try and tell myself, too, that if I'm the one to end things, maybe I'm teaching the person something, that it doesn't work to treat people that way, or something.