it's hard to feel happy for people
when there's not one thing i'm happy about with myself.
this is useless.

so.
a lot of shit has been going down.
but what's the worst is,
my birthday is soon
and there are only 2 people who actually give a fuck.
and they're 2000 miles away.
i don't want to be alone anymore.

taste the regret as it leaves your stomach
coating your tongue with every noun 
watery eyes;
the only thing that makes sense now
spitting your insides out
start over start over start over start over.

so i'm down to zero friends here!
fucking awesome.
i only had one anyway.
break sucked.
and i can't be here anymore.

i'm like a paper cup with a pinprick;
you can fill me up
but i won't stay full for a while.
and wisdom's only shown me
that my loneliness is all my fault.

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i need more from you.
you know this,
and you still don't think it matters.
i am convinced now that
i need you more than you could ever need me.

i break my heart around this post,
and then you burn, burn, burn your life down.

i know you want it all
and you got me
sorry I never was everything you ever dreamed
but kept at bay, for just in case that day

but it's okay
we'll come around
nights like this are never ending
i try so hard to make this perfect
for you and i somehow
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i fell in love with a building.
a tiny place, no bigger than a house.
it's walls slapped, pasted and pinned with memories.
and a stage, where beautiful sounds are made.
it is called the chain reaction, and i think it could be my second home.
the moment i stepped in the door
the loud bass drum, flawless keyboard and riveting vocals
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I was in the front seat, shaking it out
And I was asking if you felt alright
I never want to hear the truth
I want to hear your voice, it sounded fine
My voice, it sounded fine

I could feel my heartbeat taking me down
And for the moment, I would sleep alright 
invading with a selfish fear
To keep me up another restless night
Another restless night

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