Why won't you open up?

[wtfhashappened]

I can poor my heart out on this stupid journal crap online that means absolutely nothing, but I can't seem to talk to anyone about my feelings. I seem to just blow it off when people try to ask me about what's upsetting me. I like to make other people happy and comfortable, and I have learned from past experience that when you actually show your

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[anonymous]

Angie...I went through the same thing as you, and you know you can talk to me about these things. I feel like when you write the things about us like you do, it makes me feel like what i tell you didnt matter. Maybe thats just my opinion, and maybe your like me, where I write and talk about things in the wrong way, when I never meant them that way at all. It just hurts when you think we turn our backs on you. I never have. Theres times that i could have, and maybe I should, but I didn't, because I knew just like everyone else, you needed desperately a friend too. Everyone feels that way. And I do know how you feel. I was depressed for so long, thinking no one could ever understand me and the problems I have, or just the problems I make up in my mind. But, i'm finally coming to terms that a lot of my problems are things that I created and I must deal with myself. Yea, I still need help from other sources, but I'm getting there. I'm finally becoming happy with me. I just hope you know that if you EVER need someone to talk to

[wtfhashappened]

Sorry if it seemed like that was an attack against you, I was talking about a different group of friends all together, I know that you, Amber, Aarti, Joy, etc. have never turned your backs on me. Thanks for bein there for me, I just find it hard to actually express how I feel when I'm talking one on one to people... even if it is to understanding people like you. I don't know, I'll figure things out, it just may take a lil while. Thanks so much Auty, I'm always here for you too, no matter what you wanna talk about :)

why won't you open up?

[anonymous]

*Angie*

I know exactly how you feeel, and you know i do..i don't feel like posting my name on here, cause i'm scared everyone is going to be like..'oh she's a freaking cheerleader, and they're always happy...she's a liar.' Well let me tell you, i wish i was happy..but as you know i have recently went to the doctor and am taking anti-depressants. yeah i guess they are sort of working, but i think i just have so much freaking anger, nothing ever will REALLY work. Trust me..i know how you are feeling..i try to explain things to my perfectly, so called normal, cheerleading friends, but their stuck-up asses probably think i am psycho. But i am just saying, it really sucks to pretend to be so freaking happy and normal all the time, so your friends will talk to you, when they are all just as messed up as you, but have yet to find it out. just hang in there, and you know i am always here for you!! i love ya girl!