My Other Half
Title: My Other Half
Author: WuYeol90
Word: 1337
Beta-ed version by: spiritofthenight
“I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert - Eat, Pray, Love
One of the definitions of loneliness is the state of being alone in solitary isolation. But Kris is not in any kind of solitary isolation, and he insists that he is not a lonely man. He is a free man, physically speaking, but emotionally, he is a prisoner. A prisoner who is waiting to be executed. Kris hasn’t felt anything other than loneliness since the day he left.
His other half, Park Chanyeol.
“Don’t you dare kill yourself after I’m gone! If you do, I’m gonna run away from you if we’re to bump into each other in Heaven!”
Chanyeol said it jokingly, with a grin plastered on his face, but Kris knew better. Chanyeol knew him by heart, and he knew that Kris would kill himself when he was gone, just to be with his happy virus. Anywhere was fine with him. Chanyeol knew it because he would also do the same if he was the one in Kris’ shoes.
“Chanyeol-ah, will you marry me?”
That was proposal number 32; Chanyeol had rejected him 31 times before. Despite everything, Kris never gave up on the idea of marrying his other half. He wanted to make Chanyeol the happiest person in the world, even for a short amount of time.
“But I don’t have much time, Kris…”
Kris hated Chanyeol because the younger was so selfless. He always thought about other people first before himself and for once, just for once, Kris wanted him to put himself first before others. Or at least, wanted Chanyeol to put himself before Kris.
“I don’t want you to suffer after I’m gone.”
But that wasn't the point. The point was, Kris had already suffered enough when he received the shocking news. His other half only had 3 months to live. The news really hit him hard and he had a hard time recovering from the blow. He locked himself in their shared bedroom for almost 3 days, crying his eyes out. Kris only opened the door when he realized something that was more important than his inner turmoil at that moment. Chanyeol, his other half. Chanyeol was suffering more than him.
“Why does it have to be brain cancer? Why does it have to be you? Why?!”
Chanyeol just laughed at Kris’ childishness when they cuddled together on their bed that night. But Kris didn’t care. He really wanted someone to answer his question. He felt frustrated, desperate, sad, anything that was associated with those words, Kris felt it. And that night, Kris childishly announced to Chanyeol that he officially hated brain cancer.
Three months was such a short time. Kris suddenly remembered that he and Chanyeol haven’t even done half of their wish list that they wrote after they started dating. Kris started to panic. They need to do all of it before their time is up, before Chanyeol’s time is up. But of course it'll be hard to complete all of it since Chanyeol was getting weaker at that time.
“I want to adopt a baby boy.”
“No, please no!”
Chanyeol objected to the idea strongly because he didn't want the baby to remind Kris of him after he was gone. But adopting a baby boy was one of the things listed on their wish list, and they ended up adopting one because Kris really wanted the baby to remind him of Chanyeol.
“Don’t you dare tell me to move on when you’re gone! Because I will not! You hear me? I will not move on!”
They ended up fighting when Chanyeol brought up the subject of ‘moving on’. When the older man looked at Chanyeol’s sad eyes, he felt guilty. Kris knew Chanyeol just wanted him to be happy. But the definition of the word 'happy' in Kris’ dictionary was when Park Chanyeol was by his side. When he’s gone, what's the use of being happy?
Kris was never a happy person before he met Chanyeol. Chanyeol was like a ray of sunshine in his dark life. So, when his sunshine is gone, why must he feel happy? Why must he feel happy after Chanyeol is gone? Kris didn't see a logical reason for it.
“Sehunnie, when eomma is gone, please take care of your appa okay?”
Kris wanted to scream. He wanted to scream in front of Chanyeol’s face, saying that he heard what Chanyeol had said to their baby boy, telling him that he isn't going to be sleeping; telling him that he was going to die. He wanted to say that he can take care of his own self and that he can take care of Sehun. He wanted to say that he can take care of Chanyeol, if God only allowed him to do so.
But God has another plan for him. And it seems that Chanyeol was not a part of God’s plan for Kris. Kris didn’t cry when the doctor announced that Chanyeol was death. It was the day of their 3rd year anniversary of being together, and Chanyeol had left him, for eternity.
“Don’t miss me, please…”
Those were the most selfish words to ever come out of Chanyeol’s mouth, but Kris had still said that he promised. In the end, it was just an empty promise. Because Kris was missing him the entire time. Chanyeol has been gone for 10 minutes, but Kris already missed him. And Kris swore he wouldn’t cry, but their one year old baby boy cried so hard. It was like he knew that the person who was always by his side when he fell asleep at night was gone, forever.
The funeral went well. There weren't many people who attended since Chanyeol didn’t have any family members left except for Kris and Sehun.
“Kris, you need to move on!”
Kris debated with himself whether to hate a friend over the words ‘move on’. If hating a friend over those words could make him feel like Chanyeol was still there with him, then he doesn’t see why hating them would be a problem for him. Kris hates it when Baekhyun, Tao, Lay, or any of his friends come to his house and say the words ‘move on’. They were taboo words for him and after a long period of time, his friends finally surrendered under his stubbornness.
Three years have passed and Kris is still here, still spending most of his free time visiting Chanyeol’s grave. He never misses a day, bringing little Sehun with him after he's done with work for the day and shows him the photo of his precious other half. Kris is glad that little Hunnie smiles happily every time he shows him Chanyeol’s photo, like he still remembers the man who used to lay by his side every night and play with his soft hair.
Before, Kris never thought he would be this loyal to his love. But Chanyeol changed everything about him when he came into Kris’ life. Knowing Park Chanyeol was a blessing to Kris from God, not a burden like the younger always told him when he was battling with the disease. Kris thanked God for giving him the person who had the brightest smile in the world.
Kris should thank Sehun when he gets old enough. Really. Because without Sehun, Kris would've ended his life just to be with his other half. Now, he will devote his life just for their son's happiness. Sehun will be his sunshine from now on. But, Kris still can't wait until the day where he will be able to see him again.
“Park Chanyeol, my other half…”
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i never thought i will wrote a sad story for krisyeol T_T
Author: WuYeol90
Word: 1337
Beta-ed version by: spiritofthenight
“I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert - Eat, Pray, Love
One of the definitions of loneliness is the state of being alone in solitary isolation. But Kris is not in any kind of solitary isolation, and he insists that he is not a lonely man. He is a free man, physically speaking, but emotionally, he is a prisoner. A prisoner who is waiting to be executed. Kris hasn’t felt anything other than loneliness since the day he left.
His other half, Park Chanyeol.
“Don’t you dare kill yourself after I’m gone! If you do, I’m gonna run away from you if we’re to bump into each other in Heaven!”
Chanyeol said it jokingly, with a grin plastered on his face, but Kris knew better. Chanyeol knew him by heart, and he knew that Kris would kill himself when he was gone, just to be with his happy virus. Anywhere was fine with him. Chanyeol knew it because he would also do the same if he was the one in Kris’ shoes.
“Chanyeol-ah, will you marry me?”
That was proposal number 32; Chanyeol had rejected him 31 times before. Despite everything, Kris never gave up on the idea of marrying his other half. He wanted to make Chanyeol the happiest person in the world, even for a short amount of time.
“But I don’t have much time, Kris…”
Kris hated Chanyeol because the younger was so selfless. He always thought about other people first before himself and for once, just for once, Kris wanted him to put himself first before others. Or at least, wanted Chanyeol to put himself before Kris.
“I don’t want you to suffer after I’m gone.”
But that wasn't the point. The point was, Kris had already suffered enough when he received the shocking news. His other half only had 3 months to live. The news really hit him hard and he had a hard time recovering from the blow. He locked himself in their shared bedroom for almost 3 days, crying his eyes out. Kris only opened the door when he realized something that was more important than his inner turmoil at that moment. Chanyeol, his other half. Chanyeol was suffering more than him.
“Why does it have to be brain cancer? Why does it have to be you? Why?!”
Chanyeol just laughed at Kris’ childishness when they cuddled together on their bed that night. But Kris didn’t care. He really wanted someone to answer his question. He felt frustrated, desperate, sad, anything that was associated with those words, Kris felt it. And that night, Kris childishly announced to Chanyeol that he officially hated brain cancer.
Three months was such a short time. Kris suddenly remembered that he and Chanyeol haven’t even done half of their wish list that they wrote after they started dating. Kris started to panic. They need to do all of it before their time is up, before Chanyeol’s time is up. But of course it'll be hard to complete all of it since Chanyeol was getting weaker at that time.
“I want to adopt a baby boy.”
“No, please no!”
Chanyeol objected to the idea strongly because he didn't want the baby to remind Kris of him after he was gone. But adopting a baby boy was one of the things listed on their wish list, and they ended up adopting one because Kris really wanted the baby to remind him of Chanyeol.
“Don’t you dare tell me to move on when you’re gone! Because I will not! You hear me? I will not move on!”
They ended up fighting when Chanyeol brought up the subject of ‘moving on’. When the older man looked at Chanyeol’s sad eyes, he felt guilty. Kris knew Chanyeol just wanted him to be happy. But the definition of the word 'happy' in Kris’ dictionary was when Park Chanyeol was by his side. When he’s gone, what's the use of being happy?
Kris was never a happy person before he met Chanyeol. Chanyeol was like a ray of sunshine in his dark life. So, when his sunshine is gone, why must he feel happy? Why must he feel happy after Chanyeol is gone? Kris didn't see a logical reason for it.
“Sehunnie, when eomma is gone, please take care of your appa okay?”
Kris wanted to scream. He wanted to scream in front of Chanyeol’s face, saying that he heard what Chanyeol had said to their baby boy, telling him that he isn't going to be sleeping; telling him that he was going to die. He wanted to say that he can take care of his own self and that he can take care of Sehun. He wanted to say that he can take care of Chanyeol, if God only allowed him to do so.
But God has another plan for him. And it seems that Chanyeol was not a part of God’s plan for Kris. Kris didn’t cry when the doctor announced that Chanyeol was death. It was the day of their 3rd year anniversary of being together, and Chanyeol had left him, for eternity.
“Don’t miss me, please…”
Those were the most selfish words to ever come out of Chanyeol’s mouth, but Kris had still said that he promised. In the end, it was just an empty promise. Because Kris was missing him the entire time. Chanyeol has been gone for 10 minutes, but Kris already missed him. And Kris swore he wouldn’t cry, but their one year old baby boy cried so hard. It was like he knew that the person who was always by his side when he fell asleep at night was gone, forever.
The funeral went well. There weren't many people who attended since Chanyeol didn’t have any family members left except for Kris and Sehun.
“Kris, you need to move on!”
Kris debated with himself whether to hate a friend over the words ‘move on’. If hating a friend over those words could make him feel like Chanyeol was still there with him, then he doesn’t see why hating them would be a problem for him. Kris hates it when Baekhyun, Tao, Lay, or any of his friends come to his house and say the words ‘move on’. They were taboo words for him and after a long period of time, his friends finally surrendered under his stubbornness.
Three years have passed and Kris is still here, still spending most of his free time visiting Chanyeol’s grave. He never misses a day, bringing little Sehun with him after he's done with work for the day and shows him the photo of his precious other half. Kris is glad that little Hunnie smiles happily every time he shows him Chanyeol’s photo, like he still remembers the man who used to lay by his side every night and play with his soft hair.
Before, Kris never thought he would be this loyal to his love. But Chanyeol changed everything about him when he came into Kris’ life. Knowing Park Chanyeol was a blessing to Kris from God, not a burden like the younger always told him when he was battling with the disease. Kris thanked God for giving him the person who had the brightest smile in the world.
Kris should thank Sehun when he gets old enough. Really. Because without Sehun, Kris would've ended his life just to be with his other half. Now, he will devote his life just for their son's happiness. Sehun will be his sunshine from now on. But, Kris still can't wait until the day where he will be able to see him again.
“Park Chanyeol, my other half…”
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i never thought i will wrote a sad story for krisyeol T_T