I don't think this is going to be my usual after visit kind of post. Because frankly, I'm confused. I finally feel a bit more level but Monday I was in a really bad place. I don't know if it was "drop" or confusion or what. I've not experienced drop before except after a physical scene, typically a beating or at least bondage and rough sex. It did kind of feel like that though, so maybe it was. But I'm also confused about where I am. I felt pushed away with one hand and pulled tightly close with the other.
Saturday was necessarily vanilla. Ms Kat finally coordinated with a housekeeper to work on her son's room and she was there all day and into the evening. She and I watched a bunch of her shows together while Master Wolffe went a WoW-ing. Late in the afternoon he joined us to watch the previous night's episode of Sanctuary. We got in a little cuddling and I got tickled a little bit. Fortunately he forgot his threat of more tickling when the housekeeper left. Somehow the subject of Halloween came up and Master Wolffe declared that it would be a good night for a collaring. Ms Kat said at least the neighbor's wouldn't think much about the screams. I was sitting there wondering just what she was thinking he meant by that (what, are we going to staple the collar onto me?) when he kind of chuckled and said no, a collaring, not a branding. Um, yes, there would be a lot of screaming if I got branded. I'd probably like it but I'd still scream.
When the housekeeper did finally leave, he took a nap and Ms Kat and I moved to the living room for a bit. We watched a little more t.v. and she read some. After he got up we decided to watch the last two episodes of True Blood but first more wings had to be obtained. Even I tried some. Not the suicide sauce but even the wimpy sauce was almost too hot for me and left my lips tingling. They were so good! Much better was curling up against Master Wolffe's side while we watched t.v. I idly started rubbing his leg and his appreciative moans prompted me to work on it in earnest. I moved down to his foot and somewhere along the way Dark jumped up on us. I guess she was jealous because I was petting him instead of her. After a bit I teasingly said it was too bad the cat was in the way or I'd do his other foot and before I got it all out he was moving around so I could. *grin* I must have been doing a decent enough job of it.
After the last episode of vampires Ms Kat retired. She said we could play and she'd even go in Justin's room or back in the living room if we wanted to play in the bedroom. We tucked her in with a bit of cuddling and came back to the living room. Flipping channels we came across Robin Hood Men in Tights and settled in to watch. I was snug against his side again and petting on him a little. He told me that he really enjoyed just having me around because I made him feel peaceful and I took good care of him. I knew what he meant because I feel the same way about him. Even when I'm just sitting with him I feel his strength and his presence makes me feel loved. Loved and watched over and safe. He was definitely in Daddy Dom mode all weekend, looking after Ms Kat and several times I had to stop myself from calling him that. I'd been wearing my cuffs since the housekeeper left and between that and all the snuggling and petting (going both ways) I was feeling nicely mellow and subbie when I finally went to bed.
Unfortunately Ms Kat and my wake up call for Master Wolffe the next morning was interrupted by Justin coming home a little earlier than expected and then as soon as he left to walk the dog, unexpected company showed up. So there was little chance for even a decent good morning snuggle. I did stay a little longer than usual to keep Ms Kat company while she colored her hair and it really turned out pretty. But after that I did have to get on the road home and as soon as I left Memphis my head started hurting. I told Ms Kat that I think Master Wolffe jinxed me by saying he couldn't believe my head didn't hurt as bad as his was that morning. By the time I made it to Corinth I was in tears and had to take a bit of a break to get a drink and take some migraine medicine. When I finally got home I brought in my bags and went straight to bed. An hour or so in a dark quiet room helped tremendously but I had the same damn headache all day Monday too. I'm sure the drop feelings I had all day didn't help either. But I'm feeling better now and I'm trying to sort out my feelings so I can ask the right questions to clarify my confusion. That's for later though.