Watching myself grow?

[wynndow]

I'm oddly entertained by this strange reaction I'm having to the seemingly incessant conflict between G- and me.  I can't tell if this is actual growth on my part, or if I'm simply too worn down from everything else in my life to get wound up over it.  Yesterday, we again had a little spat that ended in him walking away from me, followed by a

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[moderately_mad]

"Holy shit! Is this the lesson I've been trying to identify for so many months? Did I just brush the edges of "letting go"?"

Very interesting thought.

I'm not doing so great these days but I thought I'd at least tell you that I did catch these entries and I am, indeed, wishing it weren't all so hard for you.

long days and longer nights

[wynndow]

I'm sorry you're not so great. Thank you for checking in though - I know how difficult that can be when life goes dark.

It really was (and I guess still is) an interesting thought. For just a little while this morning, I felt like I "got it", slightly more than before. I actually felt it, rather than intellectualized it. And I still do, just not as much. But having directly experienced it now, it's a little less an alien concept to me. Probably still not going to be very good at it, but at least I understand it better, and that counts for much these days.