I find myself, again, at a loss. I don't know how to be in a relationship when asking questions and explaining how I see things, for the specific purpose of trying to understand my partner, is seen as demonizing and vilifying that partner. We have “irreconcilable differences”, without any possibility of resolution because you've never gotten ( Read more... )

What a summer it's been so far.  I can't believe it's more than half over already.

I left the mortgage company job to take a position at a concrete construction company.  I started on a Monday, was left alone the following day (2nd day on the job - who does that?), and was "let go" at the end of that day.  No real explanation, no reason, just told ( Read more... )

But I just can't do it right now.  I need one thing to be stable in my life right now, and so far that's not happening.

Shawn,

I've been thinking about our last “conversation” since Sunday night. I'm sure that's not a big surprise.

I'm not sure what to say, and I'm not sure how to proceed. You're stepping pretty carefully around all of this, and that makes it even harder. I think I understand the point you're getting at, but I'm kind of at a loss - I certainly ( Read more... )

So, another weird stretch of my life unfolds. I predicted some time ago that I would hear from S- again, that despite my unkindness in our last communication he was not yet done. In fact, I even went so far as to guess July for the anticipated time of contact. July would be enough time passed for him to give it another passive aggressive try.

As I ( Read more... )

I still don't think my current job is "my job".  This week went better in some respects - I actually talked with my boss, I figured out a couple of things that probably matter a lot, and I spent some time working out intro speeches and emails.  What I DIDN'T manage was speaking to real live people.  So, lots of answering machines and voice mails ( Read more... )

apparently with myself!

Just going to note what's been going on with G- and I the past few days.  Will cover job related stuff later.  Probably tomorrow.

Ok, G- and I were mean and unkind to each other over the weekend. We stayed away from each other for a couple of days and then he asked me to join him for a beer in Tuesday night.  I did, and we ( Read more... )

G- sent me a text message after he left the bar.  We ended up talking until almost 3 this morning.  Better, much better.  I sometimes lose sight of just how much  pressure he's under in almost every area of his life.  I would have flipped out by now if it were me.  Actually, come to think of it, he HAS flipped out, and then settled in a dealt with ( Read more... )

So, I think G- and I are better, more or less, again.  We talked just a little on Monday - he called and suggested that B- and I come up for dinner.  We did, and when we arrived, he kissed me and said that we were setting aside our conflict for the time being to just being happy about my interviews.  Tuesday, I called him after the first two ( Read more... )

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