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i'll be your
slumdog. i'll be that girl, i'll keep your secrets locked up with mine and i'll only bring them out once and awhile. see this is the rub - i enjoy these forbidden things... i would like to sink my hands in up to my elbows. i'm losing minutes ( Read more... ) -
Love yourself more
What if you don't know how? Do you buy more clothes? Put make up on? Do you read books? What if I read books? What if I don't understand make up - what if we're broke and clothes won't do it. I wish I knew what that meant. I wish I would have an ah ha moment. I've started reading lots of self help things... I feel like people get close and ( Read more... ) -
What is now.
It's a funny thing. I've never been comfortable in any light that centers solely on me. And now that we're engaged I find that I would love someone to banter ideas around with, someone to talk about all the little details and just have some girl time. But that doesn't seem to be an option. And I don't know how I feel about that... Today ( Read more... ) -
I found something...
And old entry from December 2003... I need to remember this every damn day ( Read more... ) -
i hate mean people
and today i've had more than my share of them... the last being an email about my writing ability - or according to this person - my lack thereof ( Read more... ) -
losing it
You remember high school? You know - five minutes to get to the next class, only to kick back and have someone talk to you for 50 minutes... people talking to you who in some part of their heart believe in the possibilities of you... and you, in your naive sweetness, you believe it too... and you don't even know it... you think about ( Read more... ) -
Let's meet...
I have mixed feelings about those words. It's like, lets get together, lets do something... then there's always that pause, kind of like a sneeze in church, during the silent pray part. And then you wonder, is it me or is it them and you kind of hope it's them because I the idea of coming up with another gem of an idea is overwhelming in the ( Read more... ) -
pretty up the girl
Sometimes I just don't get people. So the big Co decides to honor their special employees by "glamour shots". Then they will be picking which photos of us look the best. We've already tried this but I guess they didn't like the shots so now we are hustled two at a time - like fucking noah's ark (which I'm sure they were on) - to the mall to be ( Read more... )