Holiday Mommy Blues
So next weekend my kiddos are going to Houston for their holiday vacation. I should be extremely excited but I find myself very sad. I tried to find affordable daycare but right now it is impossible. Not going into our finances but 300-450 a week is impossible right now with us still juggling 2 house notes. But aside from all that I am just feeling really down about them being so far away. Most of you who read my journal know *insert husband here* and I have been having some huge rocky moments and the thought of not having my kids *stability and love* here just hurts. And I realize things could be worse I could not have my children at all or someone could have passed away, etc. I realize all this and I am grateful my family is healthy and happy I am just feeling down. Anyway, I hope I do sound EMO if I do I apologize. Thank you for reading if you did and letting me vent.
