Today is Dereks last day in Streetsboro visiting with me =[ It makes me sad knowing that he has to leave and then when he does leave he will once again be fourty miles away from me. I am so used to him being here and physically seeing him. For the past week every morning when I woke up I have been able to pick up my phone, dial his number, and then ( Read more... )

Hm. I went to Famliy days with Derek today and i had the best time ever once again. Damn. I always seem to be having a great fucking time when im with Derek. He makes me so happy i swear.

xoxo
Ashley

Yesterday was a good day. Derek came over and spent some time, we took new pictures together out by the lake. Then later on, we sunbathed and I got rid of my old tan lines that I had gotten from Geuga Lake. Mmmm... I love tanning with Derek. He is amazing company for me and helps pass time while im sweating out in the heat. We sweat together. I ( Read more... )

Derek came over today. I had the most excilent time I swear. First we hung out with Zach, Billy, Alexandra and played basketball, vollyball, and went for a nice walk down the back raods. When we got back we threw crab apples into the water and tried to hit a beer can that just so happend to be in the water. It was pretty funny. Kendra was over at ( Read more... )

From the time we're born people are telling us that they love us and that we love them. But we never get to learn what it is on our own. Even when we finally "fall in love" with that special someone, all the actions and the feelings and the way it's "supposed" to feel is only what we've learned from movies and books and from the tellings of other ( Read more... )

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I'll will never again make the mistake I had choosen to make on Saterday. It was stupid and was most deffinetly the most childish mistake I had made in a long time. So stupid I almost lost Derek. He loves me and found it in his heart to be able to forgive me and give me one last chance to make things right again, to set things straight. I'm done ( Read more... )

Oh boy is it hot outside or is it just me? I was laying out for not even ten minutes and i started to sweat. I think im going to have a heat stroke if I go back out there. Alexandra and I were throwing crap apples in the pond behind us, were was a beer can in the middle of a ton of muck and she said, "Ashley, im gonna throw this and hit dat thing, ( Read more... )

Tomarrow I finally get a chance to see my Darebaby in two long weeks. I miss him terribly and I just cant wait to be in his arms again. I love being with him, I love spending my time with him, and if I could, i would spend every second of each and every one of my days with him. He doesnt know what he means to me. He thinks he does, but doesnt ( Read more... )

My Grandfather came back from the ER last night, he has ammonia on his lungs. Everyone was happy to see him and he was akwardly in a good mood. I've never seen him in such a talkative mood like that before. Everyone was happy. I was happy ( Read more... )