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what is this- sophomore year all over again? i don't think i have felt as badly as i have since thursday in a looooong time. i'm so close to the point of not giving a damn anymore. i guess that is just how my life is supposed to be. maybe i am supposed to be a lonely person who does nothing but live life at such a low point that it's depressing. whatever. if thats how it is, so be it. i want things to get better, don't get me wrong, but as of right now i'm so emotionally drained that i'm just going to stop. whoever wants me, you come to me. i'm done being the one to reach out. it's not worth it anymore. i only get upset. so from now on, i'm no longer just going to give. cause what do i get? pretty much nothing. so that's that.