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So apparently i have to work on Thursday... I don't work on Thursday's. wtf! that just pisses me off so bad. Thats also the day of the party. GAH!!
btw heres who's
Shawnie
Kelsey
Chris
Jeff G.
Maddie
Courtney
Danie
George
Nik
Mugg
Gabby
Blainison
Morgan
Kiki
Aaron
Cindy
Joeee
Nick
the party is from after school until i'm not sure when. You need to bring a gift because we're having a yankee swap! it's gonna be so much fun!!! so PLEASE PLEASE come!!
so yeah... i definitely put on my application that i can't work on Thursdays. so now i need to see if i can switch with someone. He has me schedueled for only wednesday and thursday this week. wtf, mitch?! do i need to go kung-fu on your ass?? grrrrr. and i have to work tonight from 2 til close. not so happy about that. gah! i still haven't made a gift for my YAAPP thing tomorrow. blah. this sucks. i hate christmas so much. it gets in the way far too much. WTF! grrr.
i always knew that it was a complete fucking lie. our whole relationship. it was just one big sham. You couldn't just tell the truth, could you? Why can't you just admit to me that you never loved me? SERIOUSLY! You make me sick to my stomach. I can't believe i ever fell for you. I can't believe i stayed for as long as i did. why couldn't i see how much i hated you then?? Well, "babe", i've decided that i never really loved you, how could i have let myself? gah! but i did, and i hate myself for that. you were the biggest mistake of my entire life. Thanks for leading me on. Thanks for your fucking bull shit lies. and thanks for wasting my time. You've taken away a big part of my life and i resent every bit of you for that. I wish i could just say i hate you and mean it. but you know what... i don't. for some unknown reason, i can't. i have fun with your new life. but i swear if you hurt her, and lie to her the way you did to me, i will fuck you up... i will destroy you... and i don't mean physically. there. that was me. being vengeful, or something. Thanks, again "babe", for destroying my ego, and for your lies, and for you complete and utter bullshit. i am, indeed over you, but knowing that you did, indeed lie to me, pisses me off so bad. I hate liars. I despise them, in fact. You really were no different than brian. Have a great fucking life.
Now to open a new chapter in my life.