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Title: Feathers from the Sky
Type: One-Shot
Rating: PG
Category: Angst
Warning: Slash
Characters: Ryou and Yugi
Pairing(s): None
Summary: Ryou wishes he had shown Malik his feelings before the tragic day when the blond disappeared from his life forever.
Notes: For Ryou Hunny Bunny
Feathers.
Why were there feathers falling from the sky?
I reached up and grabbed one, hoping to feel its soft warmth.
But the second my pale hand closed around it, it disappeared. At the same moment, all of the other feathers disappeared, leaving nothing but sparkling dust flowing in different directions.
They were gone; just like him.
Memories from that day had burrowed themselves into my brain, refusing to leave me alone. Every night I thought about...him, I felt myself crying, the bitter words he had told me replaying over and over again, like a broken record that could not be stopped. Oddly enough, the words were not what bothered me; no, not at all. Such words probably would not have much of an effect on someone in a different situation than I had been in.
"I'm leaving," was what he said. Insignificant words. "I'm leaving" could mean anything. It could mean he was leaving for a brief moment, taking a vacation, et cetera. Yet, as he turned away from me and walked in an opposite direction, I was sobbing uncontrollably, knowing that he would be gone forever. "Goodbye," was his last word, which he stated bitterly, with no emotion behind it. At least, none that I could sense. And to think, I was hoping that he loved me, like I loved him. We made each other smile, and spent insane amounts of time with each other. Every time I heard his voice, it felt as if I were floating through the sky, all of my burdens discarded. Up until that moment, I thought he did; love me, that is; but then what I believed to be the truth hit me hard.
Having Malik gone...it was so hard to live through. I wanted to show him my love so badly, but I did not even know where he was, and there was a good chance that he would be offended by my acts. Not only that, but when he left, something went wrong with me, literally. I see things that are not there; hallucinations. It is hard for me to decipher reality from fiction. For instance, these feathers...They looked so real, so pure, so white and shining. Even the dust they left behind looked completely realistic. Because of such a thing, I hardly ever go out. A chance that I may hallucinate could cause everyone to stare at me, wondering if I am mentally retarded. Some people might even snicker at me, labeling me as stupid.
Maybe I am stupid, though. Letting someone I love slip away from me, not even trying to stop him. Stupid for not letting myself erase memories of him clean from my mind. Stupid for dreaming of him every night, dreaming of showing him my feelings, though such a thing could never happen now. Yes, I am stupid.
"Yugi...I want to go back home now..." I said, turning to my only friend in this world, the only one who was walling to accompany me whenever I went out in public, never embarrassed by what happened when I hallucinated.
"Alright, Ryou-kun," Yugi agreed, then paused. "The feathers are falling again."