My heart hurts...

I feel like a loner and I have no friends....people always FORGET about me...<~(not refering to Eash) or just plain leave me out of things...its ok tho I dont deserve to have friends anyways...I guess id rather be alone...not like anyone cares anyways...everyone has there own bestfriend anyways...I guess ill just be my own

This sux...its spring break we have no skool for like a whole week which means no Suds for a whole week...shouldent I be happy? why am I still crying? I should be happy now that theres no one to harrass me...but instead I feel WORSE...what the fuck is wrong with me? things arent going to get better...why do I try to fool myself that they will... ( Read more... )

I need to get John out of my life...I cant stand to love him anymore...its just ruining my life...I so sic of crying about him...and if u havent noticed ((im sure u have)) every fucking entry has something to with him...wether its falt out said or expressed thru lyrics or poems...my god its to fucking hard to love this kid...im so tired of getting ( Read more... )

I can see my life crashing down in front of me...and theres nothing I can do to stop it...I fell like im outside looking in on everything....I dont belong here...I shouldent be here....Im so lost...im dead to the world : * ( ....

Im to depressed to go on but you'll be sorry when im gone...

I hate the way I feel each time I wish that I was ( Read more... )

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Carlie Elizabeth Carpenter/ Carlie~An Elizabeth Carpenter lol ( Read more... )

BLAAAAAAAAAAA im sadened and lonly : * ( im such a loser...Eash stole another John picture from me... she wont get another I only have 3 left now...and 1 of them is a picture of the back of his head! im pathetic...but I kno shes trying to get me over him and I most deffinetly want to be over him...but I just cant part with his pictures it makes me ( Read more... )

Im sic of holding on wen nothings getting any better.... : * (

Well today Sucked...I dont kno but even before art Ive been all saddened...I feel like I only have like 2 friends now....blaaa...I didnt swim in Gym today I just stared at the water the whole block...then in lunch christina ((the one that got matts name tattoed to her ass)) gave me 5$ because she said that I need to eat...and then henri said im ( Read more... )

welll today was interesting I guess...skool was dumb and useless as usual...I went to Eashes house after skool...we ate salad lol...and talked online for like 5 minutes then we went and watched Queen Of The Damned...lestat..yumm...ANYWAYS...then we walked up to little cesars and "did our thing" then we walked back to her house and had her dad drive ( Read more... )

wow this is Great ( Read more... )