i think this deserves an update.
so tonight i realized something. i knew it was coming. most everyone close to me knew it was coming. DAMN. so i broke it off with brent tonight. went to his moms house and we talked. i think he knew it was coming. i told him before im a big letdown. i always let people down. it just wasnt there. it wasnt there to start with. and i hate to be led on so im not gonna lead him on. ya know? its not that i dont love him i love him as a friend though. its not that we didnt have passion b/c we did. but passion can be there when love isnt. i felt really bad but he was completely sweet about it. hes the sweetest guy i know. were still gonna be best friends. were just going to stop "hooking up" or whatever. which wouldve had to stop anyways b/c hes going back to his dads saturday. it sucks. for me and him, it just goes to show you..
"then she reached for his hand,
and said i want you to know
ive done everything that i know of
to make the feeling grow,
ive begged and ive pleaded with my heart
but theres not getting through,
my hearts the only part of me
thats not in love with you
you cant make a heart love somebody,
you can tell it what to do, but it wont listen at all,
you cant make a heart love somebody,
you can lead a heart to love,
but you cant make it fall.."
and if you havent seen him i havent had time to introduce him to many of my friends but here he is my brent weston<3
it makes sense to use this picture of us b/c "our song" was better together -jack johnson.
there is no combination of words
i could put on the back of a postcard
and no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving
love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart
like why are we here
and where do we go
and how come its so hard
it's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
i'll tell you one thing
it's always better when we're together
it's always better when we're together
yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
well, it's always better when we're together
yeah, it's always better when we're together
and all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight
but I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
that they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
but if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
i'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
with only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now
yeah, it's always better when we're together
we're somewhere in between together
well, it's always better when we're together
yeah, it's always better when we're together
i believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep
and when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me
but there is not enough time
and there is no, no song I could sing
and there is no combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
we're better together
thats a cute picture of us. my kodak picture enhancer kinda blurred it a little when i sephia toned it. but thats my baby.
he even let me keep his green sweatshirt.
ill end up regreting this.