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ahhh wtf how can i like someone who doesn't like me anymore?!?!?! better yet, hates me probably?  why the fuck do i torture myself with this?! maybe cause im a fucken retard... i already fucked it up, so i just need to forget it..

"Fuck you Lucy, for leaving me. Fuck you Lucy, for not needing me. I wanna say fuck you, because I still love you. No, ( Read more... )

it's Cory's birthday... & mom won't let me go to the skatepark to be with him... =[
fuck.. that sucks. I miss him... umm even though I saw him yesterday.
& he kissed my cheek.. hmm only because I gave him cigarrettes.. lolz his favorite..
Camel lights... which I've come to enjoy.. thanks a lot. =]
Except the regular ones are great too.
Ha...

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Umm... went to St. Louis Sunday...!!!

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Little girl's gonna die...
Femme Fatalityyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy<3

umm.. myspace?
www.myspace.com/xfearandloathing

I love Ethan. kthxbye.

mannnnn I just chewed up 6 painkillers for my arm that I think was maybe broken tonight from random scene fags moshing to Tonight At Seven... WHO THE FUCK MOSHES TO THEM!?!?!?!?! FUCK!!! &&& yeah.. wtf is going on dood I'm ( Read more... )

gayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
its my birthday yo.
=]

I think the only reason I update this is because I have nothing better to do at the moment. Same thing with xanga & myspace. Fuck that shit. I still don't know if I want to put my latest writing up; it's soo fucked up... so forget it.

road signs tempting fate; another route to self destruction
into a painted horizon, wrong turns become inescapable
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I really miss Seansna. Seannnnnnnnnnn Sean Sean...
Where the fuck has he been dood?
I mean seriously... how can you lose a kid like this?
I miss that motherfucker... I really do.
La la la.... my friend, Sean is hot.

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I really miss Seansna. Seannnnnnnnnnn Sean Sean...
Where the fuck has he been dood?
I mean seriously... how can you lose a kid like this?
I miss that motherfucker... I really do.
La la la.... my friend, Sean is hot.

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I miss Sam Desai..
My fucken best guy friend ever dood...
It's all good though, cause he's coming from New Mexico in July to see me!!
& then we are road tripping to Aurora, Colorado to visit the lovely hometown of Fear Before.
Ooooh snap.
Me & that kid have too much fun.
Like the times we went to the mall in St. Louis & getting kicked out.
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