Why I Love Johnathan.
I'm sick and tired of people telling me, "I can do better," "He doesn't love you," and "You need someone near you, Kim." So if you don't want to read a LiveJournal entry on my opinion on why I love the man I love, then screw off.
Most people nowadays tell me that I should leave Johnathan and go for someone closer an more around my age. Okay, so maybe it isn't just now that they've started, it's been happening since we first went out, what.. 2 years ago, I think? Something like that, and I just want to make it clear why I love him. No, right now I don't care about your opinions, because right now, your opinions suck.
Let me make this clear--I don't love him because he has a job, or because he spoils me most of the time, or he's older. I don't love him because he doesn't live near me, or any of the stuff I see people assuming most of the time I talk about him.
But yes, I do love a man who has a job, who lives far away, who spoils me most of the time, if not all, and who is 4 years, 1 month, 2 days, 3 hours, and 19 minutes older than me, but I love him for other reasons.
I love him because, oi, how do explain. I love him 'cause there's always been something that makes me feel different around him. I've needed him since I met him, and I know it took a long time to see that, but I see it now. He's always made me feel sort of "needed," like the kind of needed that he wouldn't be able to do things without me, or that he needs me there just for the sake of being there. He's also the only man in my life that isn't blood related who has really cared deeply for me. And I know some of you are going, "But how do you know that, Kim?! That's impossible!" Well no, it's not. I mean, sure, things could be different from what I say, but I believe that he does. And I think that when you're in love with somebody, you have to believe the things you think are true. You gotta stick with your heart, but you can't block out your mind either, you know? So in a way, yes, I know that he cares for me. Yes, I know he loves me. He shows it all the time.
I also love him because he's always made me feel like a person. We've been best friends since we met, and he's always been there for me. I only come on to talk to him most of the time. I talk to other people too, but I could live without that. He makes me feel like I'm actually somebody in the world and I can do something, rather than the rest who make me feel so-so and make me feel like I'm not as great as them. He doesn't make me cry, intentionally anyway, he doesn't try to push me down and make me feel unuseful, he doesn't hurt me on purpose. No, it's the opposite. He's always trying to keep me happy, and he does even the littlest things just to make me smile.
And you know, I also love him because he isn't perfect. He's perfect to me, but in reality, he screws up, he's got his good points and his bad just like any other human being. Sure, maybe he does get jealous whenever I talk to someone he doesn't know, or when I'm talking to a friend of mine who's male, but I don't mind that anymore. He wouldn't be jealous if he didn't love me, you know? I know he's got some bad habits, but we all do. Maybe not so.. much like his, but there is that one habit we have that's horrible. But he's not perfect, and I know that, and I know most of you think he's just a drop-out, good-for-nothing pedophile, but that's because you're close-minded and nothing but a dumbass. Okay? Okay. I don't want him to be perfect, okay? God, if he were, in reality, perfect, I'd have to kill myself. I like him just the way he is. No, I don't like him, I LOVE him. =)
So in closing, STFU ABOUT ME AND HIM, OKAY? I KNOW he's older, I KNOW I'm just a minor, and most of all, I KNOW you people don't like him. But I love him, okay? I love him more than anything on this planet, and whatever else is out there, and if you DARE go and insult him while I'm around, I swear to God I'll kill you. If I CARED what you thought about him, I might not be with him. But really, I don't give a damn what you think of him. =)
So Johnathan, I love you. I know I have the weirdest ways of showing it, and sometimes it seems like I don't at all, but I do. Please believe me when I say that. <3333
<^> to all you fucked up people who think my life should be normal. Fuck, it is normal. It just isn't like yours.
Most people nowadays tell me that I should leave Johnathan and go for someone closer an more around my age. Okay, so maybe it isn't just now that they've started, it's been happening since we first went out, what.. 2 years ago, I think? Something like that, and I just want to make it clear why I love him. No, right now I don't care about your opinions, because right now, your opinions suck.
Let me make this clear--I don't love him because he has a job, or because he spoils me most of the time, or he's older. I don't love him because he doesn't live near me, or any of the stuff I see people assuming most of the time I talk about him.
But yes, I do love a man who has a job, who lives far away, who spoils me most of the time, if not all, and who is 4 years, 1 month, 2 days, 3 hours, and 19 minutes older than me, but I love him for other reasons.
I love him because, oi, how do explain. I love him 'cause there's always been something that makes me feel different around him. I've needed him since I met him, and I know it took a long time to see that, but I see it now. He's always made me feel sort of "needed," like the kind of needed that he wouldn't be able to do things without me, or that he needs me there just for the sake of being there. He's also the only man in my life that isn't blood related who has really cared deeply for me. And I know some of you are going, "But how do you know that, Kim?! That's impossible!" Well no, it's not. I mean, sure, things could be different from what I say, but I believe that he does. And I think that when you're in love with somebody, you have to believe the things you think are true. You gotta stick with your heart, but you can't block out your mind either, you know? So in a way, yes, I know that he cares for me. Yes, I know he loves me. He shows it all the time.
I also love him because he's always made me feel like a person. We've been best friends since we met, and he's always been there for me. I only come on to talk to him most of the time. I talk to other people too, but I could live without that. He makes me feel like I'm actually somebody in the world and I can do something, rather than the rest who make me feel so-so and make me feel like I'm not as great as them. He doesn't make me cry, intentionally anyway, he doesn't try to push me down and make me feel unuseful, he doesn't hurt me on purpose. No, it's the opposite. He's always trying to keep me happy, and he does even the littlest things just to make me smile.
And you know, I also love him because he isn't perfect. He's perfect to me, but in reality, he screws up, he's got his good points and his bad just like any other human being. Sure, maybe he does get jealous whenever I talk to someone he doesn't know, or when I'm talking to a friend of mine who's male, but I don't mind that anymore. He wouldn't be jealous if he didn't love me, you know? I know he's got some bad habits, but we all do. Maybe not so.. much like his, but there is that one habit we have that's horrible. But he's not perfect, and I know that, and I know most of you think he's just a drop-out, good-for-nothing pedophile, but that's because you're close-minded and nothing but a dumbass. Okay? Okay. I don't want him to be perfect, okay? God, if he were, in reality, perfect, I'd have to kill myself. I like him just the way he is. No, I don't like him, I LOVE him. =)
So in closing, STFU ABOUT ME AND HIM, OKAY? I KNOW he's older, I KNOW I'm just a minor, and most of all, I KNOW you people don't like him. But I love him, okay? I love him more than anything on this planet, and whatever else is out there, and if you DARE go and insult him while I'm around, I swear to God I'll kill you. If I CARED what you thought about him, I might not be with him. But really, I don't give a damn what you think of him. =)
So Johnathan, I love you. I know I have the weirdest ways of showing it, and sometimes it seems like I don't at all, but I do. Please believe me when I say that. <3333
<^> to all you fucked up people who think my life should be normal. Fuck, it is normal. It just isn't like yours.