i suck, kill me, im an ass.ummm yea, that is to the person whom already heard the real story from me. no one else cares ofcourse, people only comment in my journal to talk shit, or remind me that there still living. only person that dosent do that, comments occaisonally, but u know what, it dont matter no more, now i do this cuz my life sucks and i ( Read more... )

everyoen knows me better than i do, yet te counsler says no one knows me better than myself. so im confused here. where does the common sense part come in affect.

idiot

yes im horrible, if u r wondering what i meen byt this, then this has nothign to do with u so dont comment. but if u do know what im talkign abotu, then it is u, and u r the only one i want to hear a comment from. im sorry,i still do like u, i just fear how much i do adn how much i will get hurt by u if i chose to try to hold on. im sorry, this is ( Read more... )

i like this, i can say anything i want. and no one can comment on it here to piss me off hehehehehehe

since this journal has only caused me stress from sicne i got it, and since it only turns my own friends agaisnt me as soon as someone is able to back them up (not directed to kerri alone, also goes out to my "anomynous friends"). so this is my last entry before i cut this shit. oyes, i am a horrible person, i must be. cuz durign all of this, all ( Read more... )

alone i stand
life passes by
watching it all
quarrel in my mind
these hopes of mine
shal never b forfilled
instead this pain
to me only kills
to watch it all grow
to b better than i
i stop to wonder
what a waste of time
y did i bother
i should have known
nothing i need can b
the life i see, is just a lie

today sucked ass for me, i went to school (just ike i didnt want to but someone keeps driving me there) and then after school im torn between 3 things ( Read more... )

alone i am here to ponder
still as life it isnt a wonder
dreams i had gone to waste
others only lacking taste
y shold i care for one so great
it is only a painful trait
all these mistakes back to hunt me
always blinde never able to see
but now im fucked so alone i am
lets see how long till i break

i cant beleave it i have been ins chool for 3 weeks straight damn i think i got a new motavation to coem to svchool or something,(hmmm maybe it is that girl, naw couldnt be let me think. most b cuz im hateing everythign else about school) best part she dont beleave it,well she will have to when i get my report card and show her how many absences i ( Read more... )