Forever Lost

[x_babyskins_x]

For the past year or so all ive wanted is to go home were i have all my friends who im so used to and have memories with but then i have to stop and and think the last time some one even called me...what am i doing waiting around for all my "old friends" so i can one day be back in clermont and party my life away with them but when im not there im

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dear sis

[mocheese]

i don't know about any of your friends, but i promise you there hasn't been one day thats gone by that i haven't thought about you. I so long for are old way of life. this dream of a normal day, is so turning into a nightmare of what can never be. it eats at me so. i miss you with all of my heart. just writing these words brings a tear to my eye. and i do hope it makes you feel better knowing that someone still cares here in clermont, but even if you came back. clermont isn't the same. everyone around has changed so greatly. it's truely mind blowing how shallow ever one seems. i sit day in, and day out. watching these deluted people pull off these two faced fronts. but i so wish for the old days, and i do miss you. i have all but giving up hope for are mother. yet if it was anyone else i would have cut all contacts along time ago. so just keep your head up, and if for one instances if you ever feel truely unloved just remember that i'm always there for you. and as sad as it sounds you are the only person i still consider family.

Re: dear sis

[x_babyskins_x]

colby you have no idea how glad i am to hear this from you i miss you so much and me and dad are getting a place of our own in january please consider moving in with us and we can try to have a some what normal family again i miss being able to see you and talk to you whenever i want to i even miss all of our stupid fights i to have given up on mom she only calls me for money and this last time i told i couldnt and she screamed at me until i finaly gave in im not putting up with it any more she hasent called me since then not even thye next day to thank me and today is tuesday (pay day) so im expecting a phone call i might be in clermont in a few weeks and i really wnt to see u no matter what ever happens i hope we always stay close <3 you

[x_babyskins_x]

<3 you too

[xgracelessmindx]

Casey!! What the fuck. I skip school just to hang out with you and you blow me off to bang Matt? Thats some fucked up shit. The whole time you were around me you barly even talked to me either. What kind of game are you playing here? And I do call you but you're always at work. Damn dude, we're growing apart fast. I just can't believe you would chose a guy, especailly Matt, over me. There are such things as friends, but of course when you're a horrible one, you'd believe that friends were fake. And you're not a horrible friend, but I'm talking about the person you've quoted. Sorry Matt, I know this is going to offend you and you're going to have a lot of shit to talk after reading this, but thats jsut how I feel. You're lucky that Casey must be damn stupid, because she doesn't realize how much better she can do than you.

[x_babyskins_x]

jamie i didnt blow you off to bang matt i really wanted to see you if i didnt i wouldnt have called and told you i was coming im sorry you feel that way about matt and i suggest that if hes smart he better not have anything to say about this because its not any of his business i dont want to grow apart youve always been my best friend and if you have been calling my grandparents havent told me which dosent surpirse me they've been doing that alot lately i want things to go back to the old ways so bad but i dont even know what the old ways are now i dont even know where to start it feels like we have nothing in common anymore and it hurts me because i miss you so much and all the stupid shit we did....im sorry if it seemed i blew you off but it wasent that way at all i wanted to see you and still do want to see you if you still want to see me im not sure when im coming back but if you want ill make sure the next time i come to see you and just you.... dont be mad at me.

[divinity63]

Casey, I'm sorry to hear things aren't so wonderful.
I wish I could help.
I'm sorry I did not know you long enough to really feel like I could help.

xoxo

[x_babyskins_x]

aww abbz youve done enough just being there for me when i was in georgia thank you for that