Comments | x_curseofcurves: the end

x_curseofcurves

the end

Mar 22, 2007 20:38

Wow I haven't updated this thing in a while. I guess it takes a broken heart to motivate me. Kevin broke up with me tonight. It's stupid. We could have worked things out..But I guess some people don't take fucking with other peoples' feelings as seriously as I do. So now I'm going to go crawl into a hole and die. Wishful thinking.

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my_best_lie March 23 2007, 19:29:54 UTC

I'm in the same boat you are. But instead of thinking I'll never say what I want to say, I'm doing it. Very very soon. Because this hanging on has been going on for much too long and I need to get everything out there and take the next step, whatever that may be. I just need to know for myself that I did everything I possibly could.
You know, people grow up. They live and learn. I think everyone, after time of growing and maturing, should be given the benefit of a doubt.
Just give it a little time. Listen to yourself and analyze who you are, who he is, and what you both want. Analyze your relationship on a whole. This is going to take a while. It took me a long time. One day, the answer will hit you in the face and you'll know just what to do.

x_curseofcurves March 24 2007, 02:38:11 UTC

i know it's for the best. in a way it's kind of a fresh breath of air. i definitely loved him more than anything. and i still do. and the last thing i wanted was for us to break up. but it happened. i knew it was too good to be true. i was sort of expecting it. in the back of my mind i knew it was going to happen. and it destroyed me. like...even if i could put it into words, i wouldn't. because i'd sound so pathetic. being with him was seriously the most amazing thing i've ever experienced. and i'm really upset that i don't have that anymore. and it's going to take a lot of adjusting and getting used to. but i'm gonna have to be strong for everyone else. i really don't care about myself. if it weren't for my friends and family, i would have given up already.

I really have no analyzing to do. He made up his mind...And he taught me a lot about himself. Whatever.

Maybe I will talk to him someday. But right now it's too hard to even think about him, so I'm not making an effort to talk to him anytime soon. If he talks to me that'll be ( ... )