yeah so i kinda hate myself right now and i kinda wanna die and just let go i no im being really emo right now but its true im a horable person that should just die in a corner somewhere that way no one can be "scared" of me i bet people would just be so much happier without me around......ok well im off to go put some more gashes through my leg ( Read more... )

yeah so alex still hasint talked to me but thats nothing new....but im so happy with kevin i like him a lot hes a really nice guy. im so glad its friday i have been so tired all week and last night didint help any my eyes still hurt from crying all night. i finaly broke down and just let it all out so that was good. tonight im going to kerrys house ( Read more... )

yeah so alex still isint talking to me....and i have tried to call her but she wont call me back or she hangs up on me... i dont no what else to do i guess this is really the end of our friendship i mean its been over a week and shes still not talking to me and she hasint bothered to call me at all i dont no what she wants from me but everything ( Read more... )

i cant belive this is fucking happening to me i didint do anything except be a great friend to her and then he says he likes me what am i going to do lie? i dont think so so alex as far as im concerned right now you can go fuck yourself b/c i didint do anything i told him that i cant go out with him b/c my friend likes you i didint say who i just ( Read more... )

hey sorry i havint updated for a while i have been in ferdonia with alex it was fun like always but a little boring b/c mike and corey wereint there then tonight i went to the movies with alex and kevin and then sarah met up with us after so that was fun.....but i think alex is mad at me i dont no what i did but whatever ok well im going to bed ( Read more... )

yeah ok so i hate the person i have become.....im no fun anymore im a bitch and a no fun to be around i just put people down and obvisusly people feel this way b/c they point it out to me....expecially tonight im just depressed and drunk and i dont feel like talking anymore

yesterday was passover and alex did come i thought she was mad at me but i guess not. today i didint go to school i went and got my second holes pirced they look soo good! and it was amazing b/c my dad sells cigars to the owner so i didint have to pay they did my ears and adams for free it was so cool!

sammie<3

great....alex is mad at me and now shes not coming for passover ahhhhh just when i thought things were geting better i managed to fuck something else up

yeah so i kinda feel like a fucking loser b/c i took a chance and told someone my feelings but obvisaly they dont care so fuck them! today idk i was just in a bad mood all day and then emmy leanne and i went to andersons after school and everyone was fucking eating my food even after i fucking screamed at them to get the fuck away god i fucking ( Read more... )

yeah so today i gave him the note.....and he hasint said anything to me since so idk i think that maybe i shouldint have said anything but to late for that now.

sammie