Goodbye, "Evil" One

[x_expat]

At six this morning, I was awakened by the sound of a dog screaming outside my bedroom window-the kind of scream a German Shepherd makes when it's hyperexcited or in pain. A second later, I heard a cat scream, and I knew Kuro-chan, aka the Little Black Terror was in trouble. I hoped she would just hide under the house where the big dogs couldn't

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[the_kiggy]

So sorry. *hugs*

[x_expat]

Thanks.

[cornerofmadness]

I'm really sorry to hear that

I'm so sorry

[ext_89007]

*hugs*

Re: I'm so sorry

[x_expat]

Thanks. Due to the violence of it, this hurts me more than Buddy's death by an order of magnitude.

[karen_cat_7]

oh, i'm so so sorry. ((hugs))

[x_expat]

Thsnks.

[evil_little_dog]

Long Hugs. Long, long hugs.

I'll light a candle for Kuro-chan tonight.

[x_expat]

Thanks.

I found her collar, lying on the spot where she died. The dogs had shaken her so violently it had snapped off.

I put it and some of her loose fur (there's still tumbleweeds of it on the porch) in front of my little Kannon-same. Thought about putting flowers in the spot. Felt silly about it.

It's amazing the ritual you claw for. I scrubbed out the bathroom where I'd put her as I frantically put on clothes/looked for a box to carry her in. I want to throw away the sheets off my bed and the towel I'd used to bundle her in. I want to pressure wash the porch and throw away chair cushions. Change the house. Change the yard. I hate this place right now.

[evil_little_dog]

Yes, I can imagine you do. I felt terrible after Callie's death to that poisonous snake, that there wasn't anything more I could do. The dogs didn't get to stay outside anymore after that, I followed them around every time they went outside. I still cried when I had to kill the same type of poisonous snake, because it wanted to get into my house.

I still have her ashes, and Dodger's. I still want a place to honor them the way they should be. I still see a radar-eared Schnauzer-type and feel a tug for Callie, or hear a low bark and think it might be Dodger.

It takes time. Give it to yourself.