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[x_firstxkiss_x]

Mmmkay....Drama.....lmao Anyway its ending here.. NO MORE PEOPLE LORD!!!! LMAO Wel I didnt get to go to GatlinBurge with Dustin cause bob got sick last minute. :( Sucks lol But I've spent alot of time with dustin and I know alot of you dont want to hear it but Im growing to him. Same on his side. Alot of things have happened too. (And no not that

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Is that all?

[bigdaddymuncy]

Is that all you want to say to me?? Just because of our parents you forget about me?? That didnt stop us before now did it?? You moved on without telling me anything.......was it the fact that you wanted to move on all this time since you met Dustin or what?? Because I know it isnt our parents.......we havent let that stop us before Chelsea.......and you never answered my questions........just answer this one.....Do you still love me?, and if not.......getting over someone in a week is something I never have heard of.......but I do still love and miss you every damn day.....since you want to let go....I just want to ask one favor.....if its ok with you.....and if you havent already fell for someone else.....can I just have one day to talk to you or see you one last time? thats all I want....you dont have to tell Dustin about it if you dont want to.......but Tabbi is going to know about it......because I dont hide anything from anyone anymore.......Im over that spell.....so whats it going to be Chelsea.....just this one last time

Re: Is that all?

[x_firstxkiss_x]

No thats not all I have to say to you but god Brad. You want me to change to something that I cant. I know you say its possible, yeah maybe for you but it aint for me okay? sheww...Yeah Im sure Gail told you that I had a huge triangle since June but you know what.....you knew about it. why you didnt see it I dunno. But it was there. I didnt move on or forget or or anything. I just quit calling because dad was going freakin nuts on me and I stayed gone all the time. Sometimes I'd be at Nancy's, Sometimes I'd be at Debbie's, and yeah. I aint gonna lie...When I would wake up in the mornings I'd go take a shower and do all that stuff I do in the mornings and I would walk over to Dustin's house, Go thru his back door, go to his room, & wake him up and when he'd wake up I'd let him go to sleep for a whle longer and I'd sit there and watch tv til he woke up, which was only about 10 minutes. And we'd spend all day together. Yeah me and him have gotten close, really close actually. Yeah anyone who's gonna read this can think what they want,

You could have told me that a long time ago.

[bigdaddymuncy]

This shouldnt be too long I dont have very much to say to you anymore I've pretty much drained myself of everything.....but all you had to do was tell me this a long time ago and I could have most likely taken this alot easier.....and with the triangle thing.......yeah I knew it was there.....I seen it Im not stupid I've been in enough of them to know the signs.....but I figured that its just a phaze that it will change after you've had your fun....because I've been there.....sitting in their bed one day and just BOOM it all just comes back and hits you so hard that you dont even know what just happened.....and you get that empty feeling....and flashbacks start coming back....and then you've realized you screwed up....I've been there done that.....I guess it was just a little too late for that......but if I recall Chelsea......that week we stayed together well 4 days......4th of July....god I loved that....(the fact that Im almost starved was not fun lmao) but other than that I loved spending that time with you....yeah there were

Re: You could have told me that a long time ago.

[x_firstxkiss_x]

well okay, sorry that I didnt tell you that. damn.