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[deepinourhearts]

i feel like God has moved me to a completely new place in my life.  i have reached a plateau of choices.  just choices.  and i don't know where they will all lead until this season of "choices" is over.  It's like picking out paint and having someone else paint something with the colors you've chosen.  i'm sure it'll be great whatever it is

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[geoffspelunker]

It's like picking out paint and having someone else paint something with the colors you've chosen.
That's such a great simile.
I felt like I was at a standstill last year too and I felt miserable because the goals that I was working towards I realized were unattainable. I later realized that it was less like a standstill and more like a crossroads. I made some changes, and trusted that everything would be alright, and now it's better than ever. I heard this great expression once which is "let go and let God" which is definitely easier said than done, but man... we become so obsessed with control and precisely determining our outcome that it's so easy to become defeatist... I say you're right to try your best to make careful decisions, but above all to trust that the outcome will be right. Trust is highly underrated.

[mrmikeyman]

Every time I think I've hit a standstill, or a plateau, or what have you, I try to remind myself that things don't happen in our time, but in His time. What is supposed to happen will, when it's supposed to happen. When it gets too frustrating I just ask God to throw me a bone, or maybe a bit of peace. So far I've managed to get along without ripping out my hair, or ripping off someone else's face.

Just remember, if you feel like you're in a place where you don't know what to do next, you can always ask for help. It's what He does best. :)

[deepinourhearts]

haha.. i like that throw me a bone thing. that's great. haha.

yeah. it's not like i've reverted completely to being female.. but.. damn. it feels a lot like it. i dunno. my hair is long. i've decided to grow it out to donate it.. but it's messing with me big time.
i feel like i changed so much since last year this time. i wish i didn't have to transition and it would just poof* happen overnight.. or.. something. the hardship Sux. ugh. i think in my area(church) i feel like the pastors and people there don't really know about it.. so they're kinda freaked out by it? i dunno- i haven't seen normal trans people around my side of town.. so it's hard. yeah- hahaha TOO MUCH! lol sorry didn't mean to unload on you! haha
welcome to my plateau