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monologue. way too dramatic but oh well.
(she stands toying with a necklace) my grandmother gave this necklace to me when i was eight. she said i was her only grandchild mature enough to handle such a thing. but of course i never even thought anything of it. she was always caring about other people. everyone was family and she made sure they all got christmas presents every year. she had so many "Family" members that she had to start her shopping in january. i remember her begging me to look through the catalogues and piick something out. i was a young child filled with greed, but she loved me anyway. she loved everyone. it wasn't until i was older that i learned to appreciate her. (pause) but when she started giving me some of her antique posessions, i knew in my heart something was wrong. but she'd never go to the doctor, and she'd never ask anyone for help. she just didn't want to worry us, but i think if she'd just gone to the doctor earlier it would've saved her life. (beat) i was only 13 when my grandmother died of colon cancer. it was hard on our family and i do believe its still slowly tearing us all apart. when her husband died a month later from a broken heart, i knew things would never be the same again. my dad cried alot and it scared me to see someone so strong break down like that. its been a while but i can still hear him talking to her up in heaven sometimes.
i'd do anything to bring her back to me. i only wish i hadnt been such a rotten kid in the short, short time i'd known her. i know she's happier where she is, i just wish she'd come back. (beat) that's all I want.
song
every time i turn around, i expect you to appear
everyone may call my name, but its your voice that i hear
every moment that you're gone is a moment dark and gray
every tear a mother cries is a dream thats washed away
every day will seem to be much more empty than the last
^^that may look short but its really slow so it;ll be cool^^
cold read
i have absolutely no way to prepare for this. DARN IT.
[[[feeling a sort of "loss" theme? haha]]]