It's become odd. Not right ( Read more... )

So here I am in the biggest mess I've ever made for myself ( Read more... )

RIP

Evian Dugan DiStefano

June 26, 1985 - April 10, 2006

I love you. I miss you.

Nothing I do or say will bring him back, and regret hangs overhead for all the times and fun and words that never occured because I waited too long.

I need you.

So I feel like a terribly person, but since Evian, my roommate, read my convos on his computer, I had few qualms about reading his convos. Literally, I just typed my name in, and 35 convos came up from him to Emily. Naturally, I was curious, and felt bad, but did it anyways ( Read more... )

I loved visiting school again. I really missed everyone so much, I can't even express it. I can't express the misery and guilt of not returning to them, how much I dwelled and cried over each and every one of them. And I came home to find two loving people waiting for me as well. I felt so incredibly lucky. And my therapist dug into me a bunch... ( Read more... )

I feel so empty and flat.

So I'm coming back to Earlham on March 30th to visit, get my stuff, and compete at regionals. I'm really excited to see everyone, I can't wait. I've missed my friends SOOOOO much. And I need to get away from everything here... haven't been able to take many breaks from everything and everyone and all the shit and my mom. Ya, I'm a bit of a mess, ( Read more... )

I got the sweetest call from Val last night. It honestly broke my heart. If I hadn't of been so tired, I woulda been sobbing with her on the phone. Maybe tonight I will. I really really miss her ( Read more... )

I feel like shit. I spent all day in Evian's bed unable to get up because the world would spin madly. I've concluded so far that I have a cold and I'm having side-effects to the meds. And I feel kinda like fainting. And Kendall and Evian went to the store about an hour ago ( Read more... )

Freya leaves today. I've been near tears all day. It's the last thing to really confirm that I left ( Read more... )