Ugh.
I've never been so worried or so scared or so stressed in my entire life.

Please don't leave me.
What am I going to do without your strength?

Hey,
No one else matters.
I love you.

I need something.
I taught myself how to paint with watercolours tonight.
I bought a tattoo kit.
I'm bored with life.
I need something to keep me busy.
To keep me from thinking too much.
To keep me stable.
To keep me sane.

Fuck you livejournal.
Fuck you cancer.
Fuck you places that won't hire me.
Fuck you schools for taking my friends away.
Fuck you terrible feelings in the pit of my stomach.
Fuck you 2008.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.

Sleep forever.

I can't sleep. So I got to thinking ( Read more... )

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Yesterday morning I was supposed to have a liver transplant ( Read more... )

I've been so used to being lazy tired, when I just sit around all day and get tired because I haven't done anything ( Read more... )

Sometimes I really miss what we had ( Read more... )

you try to have a conversation with someone and it just irritates you because the person you're speaking to is so oblivious to the world around and how to even have a decent conversation about anything other than a band, tv show, boy or girl that they like, or whatever teenage drama is happening at school that day?

Die in a fire.