some thoughts..
life(n.)The physical, mental, and spiritual experiences that constitute existence
"The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want."- Ben Stein
so i have been thinking alot latley. i mean the school year is comming to an end, and ill be a senior. yeah thats right boys and girls, a senior..wether i like it or not. it is so weird, i mean i can remember walking in the frist day of school in first grade. its crazy how time flys. it is almost kind of scary, no it is scary. im really scared of what my future holds. i know what i want to do in life, but i am worried that i wont make it. i know, i know..that is not how you are soposed to think..you are soposed to be "optimistic" but it is alot harded than it sounds. im so scared..i just want to close my eyes and stay 17 forever.. modeling, it is something that i want to do more than anything..and i know that if i dont make it, i wont be happy in life. i love science though as well, i love genetics and forensics and bio..i know that at somepoint that i will need to do more studies on those, i cant get enough of them. anyways. the future is quickly approaching and it is the time to make decisions and start to make decisions on your own. i hate making decisions..and it scared me. what if i make the wrong ones? what if i wind up a no-body. i cant do that. i need to be known. i will be know. you will all know my name someday, because if not than i have not worth of living. i know i wont be fully happy doing anything else. there is just something about being infront of that camera and those people. i crave it. i have the passion and desire for it. i think about it constantly..i need it. and i know things need to happen this summer if anything is going to happen at all. its so weird to think about though. the future scares me. im terrified of what it holds. i have so many fears and worried, but i know that ill just have to close my eye..grit my teeth..and dive in head first.
::warning...may get mushy::
love(n.) A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
"Love is the difficult realization that something other than oneself is real."-Iris Murdoch
on another note. zachary and i, are amazing. no matter what, he is there for me and supports me in anything that i choose to do. he has helped me through some rough times with my dad, and he doesnt even take a second thought at being there to comfort me and try and lighten my mood. he can always put a smile on my face, even if i am on the floor in tears there is just something about him that makes me feel happy. just his presence makes me glow. he always knows the perfect things to say at the right times.. and the little things he does just melts my heart sometimes. like the way he looks in my eyes, or the way when he wants to kiss me..he'll pull me in. and i love the way i feel just being in his arms. everything about him helps shape me as a person. i honestly would not be me without him. infact i cant see myself without him. i cant even stand going a day without talking to him or seeing him. i love him. and i mean it with every sense of the word. he completes me as a person, and i cant live my life without him. i love you zachary stephen chorik<333
friend (n.) A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
"Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love."-Jane Austen
through the years, i have both gained and lost friends. i have learned a few harsh lessons as well. i have learned to appriciate everyone, because you never know when you will need a helping hand. friends are needed in life, without them..you who would be do stupid things with? have storied to tell to/about? sneek out with and go sleep back in the woods and be droven home in a cop car with? and another important thing is, friends teach you lessons. friends are always there for you no matter what the situation..and true friend will be by your side for life. they tell you the truth, and are there for you to trust and confide in. without friends, admit it..we would all go crazy. they help to guide and mold you. your friends help define yourself as a person, so choice how you pick your friends wisley. have a variety, not sticking to a clique. the more the better. so learn from your friends, and love and charish them..because in the end, your true friend will still be there standing strong.
*..dont take anything for granted
*..We do not what we ought,What we ought not, we do,And lean upon the thought That Chance will bring us through. -Matthew Arnold
*..Time takes it away. Even if you don't want it to. Time takes it away. Time bears it away. And in the end all that is left is darkness. -Stephen King
*.. Action is eloquence. -William Shakespeare
*..We are what we repeatedly do-Aristotle
*..To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.- Burtrand Russell
*..Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it-Confucius
-kurt cobain
i love you zachary stephen chorik<333
*..nikki