yeps, second update today.
i'm freaking out.
i hate myself.
i'm fucking ugly.
i'm fucking fat.
i'm a fucking loser.
when i try to lose weight, i gain weight.
because i fucking suck.
i haven't been this goddamned emo in years. angst music wot.
i want to break something. smash it into fucking bits.
i had to walk around my living room and try to calm myself down. i want to scream.
tomorrow i want to get on the treadmill and run until i puke up my fucking stomach so i won't have to eat anything anymore.
i can't even get across how fucked up i feel right now. i hate this bullshit, i'm not supposed to be like this.
/FUCKING SHIT I SHOULDNT BE SAYING.