52 days until my birthday... wwhat should i do for my birthday?? i was thinkin beach frisbee/ v-ball partay and that kinda fun.. i dunooo

my neighbor jus got a new care for his college graduation..its niiiceee...mazda 6.

yep

bike rides later!! yay

i got new sunglasses they are white and crazy awesome.

<3coley

im back from virginiaaaaa and it was a good time. me and whang boo had fun being sillyyyy. i got a facial and a bit of a tan. yay.

judds beach house..hell yea. good times.. the beach..oh what adventures hehehe

i picked up the paycheck from crombie..170 ehh

im tirrreddddd.

easter tomorrow and it supposed to rain and be yucky out. damn.

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well i didnt get into the university of florida...oh well..but i dont know where im going to go...damn decisions..umass, towson, vermont..craphole..i dunno

work today 2-7 come visit!

im having a shitty weekend so far...fuck.

xonicoley

damn this senior paper, ahhhh. but im almost done and all of the frustration and stress it has caused me will be gone.. im gonna throw a fucking party. for serious. haha.

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ive decided....no more sadness! im sick of it! its getting warmer and im not going to let any shit bring me down!!! hell yea i need to start making plans earlier for the weekend or else ill end up sitting home as usual...i started drawing in my book again, and it makes me happy. i also broke out new music for my car..i loaded my cd changer with ( Read more... )

what a shitty day... everything was goin great, but now it isnt ( Read more... )

i donated blood today! and i got a sticker that says "Kiss me! I gave blood today!" awesome.

i drove miiichelle, jon and lawry home, then i drove scott to the library. woa. i didnt get home until like 4 15 and thats craziness. but i dont mind, i like doing things for others :)

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i feel so gross and so ugly...my self image is very low of recent, i nevr look good, i feel fat, and i keep eating..i cant control the way i look ta myself and i dont know what to do, i feel so unworthy..so used and abused ( Read more... )

friday night was awesome..

say the same about saturday...

i feel really bad, but i could not get up

i dont know what was wrong with me but i kept on sleeping

i really wanted to see you but there was just no way i could go out i couldnt stay awake...

i know ur mad, but there is nothin i cud have done...

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this week has been shitty, i dont wanna feel used anymore. i wanna feel special, and appreciated for once. i want to feel loved and not like this old thing thats always there. im tired of being dragged around and my emotions being put to the test. its not fair. am i not good enough? not pretty enough? not fun enough? i used to be. but now, i dunno ( Read more... )