Eleven days 'til I graduate. I cannot fucking wait.

August I'll be back in the states and may actually start a life then... and again I cannot fucking wait.

My manager at the bowling alley, my friend Paul's dad, and a friend to many took his life yesterday in the bowling alley.

He hung himself behind the lanes early Wednesday morning. 
He came to work, locked the doors, set his scene, then hung himself.
No one has found his car yet.
He put away the ladder he used to tie the cord to the rafters.
He had it ( Read more... )

I graduate in one month.

and I can't fucking wait cause I am exhausted with work, sports, and school, and still tryin' to go out on wekends.
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One of my best friends is drifting outwards on a path that really is taking him nowhere. And he is hella fucking stubborn. I just wanna drink a beer with him, chat, and understand him a bit yaknow...

I miss lots ( Read more... )

[i must have still been gone when i wrote this cuz i managed to not actually post it bu hide i from myself and i just now found it,der derrderr}

yes infliction not infection...

I had an immensly "white" holiday, and It's not even over yet.
Past three weeks have been very crazy, all fun though.
Last night was theeee best by far....

Had our staff party at ( Read more... )

I really am going to meet her. I'm really not the kind of person to be this attracted to someone I barely know ( Read more... )

world colliding? will it pass?

years go fast and the days go slow
the slowness of days kills me when im down
the slowness of days is what i live for when im  up.

when will life ever seem like reality?

new fucking blood brothers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and new modest later this month!!!!

and maybe a chance to go back????????????? mmmmm...  i hope sooo baddddddd.....!

wow it's been like a month and life is still fucking crazy ( Read more... )

cocaine
nicotine
tobacco
beer
liquor
champagne
grass
wine
ecstasy 
oxy
lsd
meths
sex
lie
prescriptions
steal
hate
fight
love
remember
forget

sometimes I wonder why?
why do we do these things?
why are we not dead by the age of 20?
why are we not emotionally troubled for life?
why aren't we imprisoned?
why aren't we fathers and mothers?
why do we not have cancer?
and how do we ( Read more... )

fuck life and it's inevitable bullshit ( Read more... )