i bet you can't read the entire thing - i'm actually happy right now
you know what.
i was fucking depressed as all hell last night.
i realized today that people who don't care about me back, should burn in fucking hell (whether they believe in it or not).
if i truly care about you, it's a rare thing.
if you ignore it, then fuck you.
i could be the type of person that doesn't care about anyone else. at all.
only about their own happiness.
but that would make me into something i HATE.
people liek that are too WEAK MINDED to handle anything but themselves.
and even then they manage to fail at that.
even the thought about caring about someone else's feelings makes them uncomfortable and stressed.
they only care about themself being happy, being cared for, having attention, having glory..
well i'm sick of all you.
i PITY all of you.
the people in school..the people i've met through others..people i've helped in different situations..
b/c you will never ever truly be happy if you don't start caring.
you're friends will get fed up at one point and you'll be one lonely motherfucker for most of your life.
i never cause drama for anyone. i never try to. i don't like to complain, ever. and i dont' try and MAKE people care.
i let people be who they are around me, i never try and change them.
and i don't judge anyone i know b/c you never knew what they've been through.
and they are not YOU, so they don't have to have anything in common with you for you to still get along fine..
i don't disrespect them for what music they like, how they dress, what their hobbies are, their past..
even if i hate what they do, how they are, what they like.. i'm not going to think less of or ignore their existance.
people who can't be so open minded are worthless to this planet.
i can only put up with this type of person for so long before they disgust me.
i can still have fun and talk with them, but they lose my caring and trust.
i also hate people who don't say what they're thinking.
people who are so OBVIOUSLY hiding some thought from you but are too cowardly to say it.
if you don't liek something about me, let it out fucker!
and to MY FACE, not through others like a little bitch.
say what you mean, don't freakin' pretend to like me if you don't.
if you hate my guts let me know so i can stop wasting my energy on you.
i'm determined to have a fun exciting life. trying ANYTHING and EVERYTHING i wish!
worthless, self-absorbed, depressed, and un-enthusiastic people will only slow me down..
i'm not going to have a boring time because of someone else.
if i invite you to something with me i want YOU to have a good time. it's not so i can have company!
i can do anything i want alone but helping others enjoy life can be great.
i won't allow someone else to ruin my ride through this short-ass one-chance life!
if you can't handle the excitement, and want to do nothing or the same things with the same people week after week, stay away from me.
even though i have no clue what i want to do in life, and it gets me fucking frustrated as hell sometimes..
i'm just going to go with the flow of it and see where life takes me.
i am determined to be successful while still having a great time.
if you give up too easily with challenges, or just dont' have fun with anything, again...go away.
i'll try and help you through things unless you show no thanks in return.
then you can go fuck up your own life.
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i have more but should stop for now.
i'm not even angry or pissed off. just stating truths i have been annoyed with.
i'm actually quite happy right now, looking forward to many things in march..
Rob ZOmbie concert, Icon, Wicked - being out with friends and having a great time. ^.^
[[then of course my bday and spring break in one more month!]]
trying to get a job. sorta want to work with mom with catering for $25/hr..
and i'm trying to get a permit a.s.a.p...went with mike, frank, and kelleher to the DMV the other day
kelleher finally got his permit, and now i want mine :p
i'm determined to get every question right though!
and then take the 5-hour course to lower insurance costs.
anddd i am determined to do better in my college computer course.
we're going to be doing C/C++ programming now and i'm actually interested in it.
watchign American History X in cities class, yay! and Harlem trip this next friday. ^.^
Stony Brook won't be so bad for a year if i get to dorm with kooshie.
i really really want to get into Cooper Union, dunno if i can.
you need to be extremely good at what you do to get in there
[one of the most selective colleges in the US. - 12-13% acceptance] and i'm not sure what i wanna do yet or if i'll be good enough.
free tuition if you get in though ^.^
and i'll need to take more SAT's i think. but i'll probably still try.
i was fucking depressed as all hell last night.
i realized today that people who don't care about me back, should burn in fucking hell (whether they believe in it or not).
if i truly care about you, it's a rare thing.
if you ignore it, then fuck you.
i could be the type of person that doesn't care about anyone else. at all.
only about their own happiness.
but that would make me into something i HATE.
people liek that are too WEAK MINDED to handle anything but themselves.
and even then they manage to fail at that.
even the thought about caring about someone else's feelings makes them uncomfortable and stressed.
they only care about themself being happy, being cared for, having attention, having glory..
well i'm sick of all you.
i PITY all of you.
the people in school..the people i've met through others..people i've helped in different situations..
b/c you will never ever truly be happy if you don't start caring.
you're friends will get fed up at one point and you'll be one lonely motherfucker for most of your life.
i never cause drama for anyone. i never try to. i don't like to complain, ever. and i dont' try and MAKE people care.
i let people be who they are around me, i never try and change them.
and i don't judge anyone i know b/c you never knew what they've been through.
and they are not YOU, so they don't have to have anything in common with you for you to still get along fine..
i don't disrespect them for what music they like, how they dress, what their hobbies are, their past..
even if i hate what they do, how they are, what they like.. i'm not going to think less of or ignore their existance.
people who can't be so open minded are worthless to this planet.
i can only put up with this type of person for so long before they disgust me.
i can still have fun and talk with them, but they lose my caring and trust.
i also hate people who don't say what they're thinking.
people who are so OBVIOUSLY hiding some thought from you but are too cowardly to say it.
if you don't liek something about me, let it out fucker!
and to MY FACE, not through others like a little bitch.
say what you mean, don't freakin' pretend to like me if you don't.
if you hate my guts let me know so i can stop wasting my energy on you.
i'm determined to have a fun exciting life. trying ANYTHING and EVERYTHING i wish!
worthless, self-absorbed, depressed, and un-enthusiastic people will only slow me down..
i'm not going to have a boring time because of someone else.
if i invite you to something with me i want YOU to have a good time. it's not so i can have company!
i can do anything i want alone but helping others enjoy life can be great.
i won't allow someone else to ruin my ride through this short-ass one-chance life!
if you can't handle the excitement, and want to do nothing or the same things with the same people week after week, stay away from me.
even though i have no clue what i want to do in life, and it gets me fucking frustrated as hell sometimes..
i'm just going to go with the flow of it and see where life takes me.
i am determined to be successful while still having a great time.
if you give up too easily with challenges, or just dont' have fun with anything, again...go away.
i'll try and help you through things unless you show no thanks in return.
then you can go fuck up your own life.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------
i have more but should stop for now.
i'm not even angry or pissed off. just stating truths i have been annoyed with.
i'm actually quite happy right now, looking forward to many things in march..
Rob ZOmbie concert, Icon, Wicked - being out with friends and having a great time. ^.^
[[then of course my bday and spring break in one more month!]]
trying to get a job. sorta want to work with mom with catering for $25/hr..
and i'm trying to get a permit a.s.a.p...went with mike, frank, and kelleher to the DMV the other day
kelleher finally got his permit, and now i want mine :p
i'm determined to get every question right though!
and then take the 5-hour course to lower insurance costs.
anddd i am determined to do better in my college computer course.
we're going to be doing C/C++ programming now and i'm actually interested in it.
watchign American History X in cities class, yay! and Harlem trip this next friday. ^.^
Stony Brook won't be so bad for a year if i get to dorm with kooshie.
i really really want to get into Cooper Union, dunno if i can.
you need to be extremely good at what you do to get in there
[one of the most selective colleges in the US. - 12-13% acceptance] and i'm not sure what i wanna do yet or if i'll be good enough.
free tuition if you get in though ^.^
and i'll need to take more SAT's i think. but i'll probably still try.