if i could just see you, this darkness would turn to light

[x_zu_zu_x]

i feel so incredibly sad

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[jenichaos]

i've kinda gone through this, and the bright side is is that you don't exactly have to be broken up!(because, i mean you guys obviously like eachother a whole lot)

but, i don't feel like i can really say anything on here, cause it's hard to really elaborate online, so if you want we can talk soon!

[x_zu_zu_x]

we need to hang out soon jen jen. call me. its just a really tough thing..

[pirating101]

awww, baby, I love you!!

I'm so sorry, lovely.

I need to see you soon.

I'm leaving June 11.

[x_zu_zu_x]

call me soonn..

hey baby

[lilal1689]

baby when i read this i cried. all this shit is so familiar to me you have no idea. i know that does absolutely nothing to help you. but all i can tell you is. knowing yourself is absolutely without a doubt the most important thing you can do for yourself. take time to be by yourself and get reconnected. and if your as crazy about him as it seems..then you will figure out a way to keep that sense of self and be with him. he sounds like a great guy and what yall had sounds wonderful. no sense in running yourself in the ground. take some time. give it another go once you catch your breath. the end haha. i love you!

Re: hey baby

[x_zu_zu_x]

aww my lovely ali, i want to see you. yeah, i hope all goes well. thanks for the support.

[buddhabangbot]

zaina, i know your father is still very used to doing things the way he was raised, but what would happen if he finds out about your relationship you had with eric? what im really trying to get to is what would happen if you confronted your father about the issue. i know you two have been in countless arguements about his stern nature, but despite it he must know that hes living in a society that carries completely different standards than he desires and that you are as much apart of this (american) heritage as you are arabic culture. And you are grown up and mature enough to the point where you can make decisions for yourself. eric has told me that he would send you away if he were to ever find out about the two of you but honestly he cant. what can he actually do? he doesnt have the power to actually do that or anything else unless you LET him. he must know somewhere in him that hes fucking his relationship up with you and his entire family. and deep down he loves you, but loves not control. you need to be able to express that to

[x_zu_zu_x]

thanks mikey..i appreciate it. a lot.

[peppajack217]

I think it is for the better. If your love is meant to be, then when time has passed and you have the ability to act of your own accord, you can be with Eric. But, if you had been caught with Eric, chances are you could never have him. This is delayed pleasure. You will be with him again one day.

[x_zu_zu_x]

i know it, its just so painful and so not what i truly want. eric was kind of my only freedom. the only thing my dad couldnt mess up (other then not letting me see him) i dont know what to do or what im going to do..but this feels so not right.