Well i waited up all night for steve and summer to get here finally at 4am i get a phone call from jake i thought that was never gonna come , just as i was about to fall asleep my phone rang. So the 4 of us went to the manalapan beach and watched the sun rise , it was really nice :) i missed summer and steve and jake :) I love them so much <3 then ( Read more... )

Well once again i had another dream about matthew , i was in a tattoo shop and i was looking out the window and i was looking at a group of people walking by and one of the last people that walked by was Matthew, he had two tattoos on his back one of them said matthew , so i ran outside and it was really him with a bunch of people i didnt know , ( Read more... )

Lately ive been having the weirdest dreams but at the same time they are so wonderful. Like last night i had a dream we were all traveling i mean it was everyone rik, brian, dan, stef, nicole, jay, sammy, ahern, traci, mike, mac, and his new girlfriend, seth , his woman im not kidding everyone was in my dream, and the most important person of all ( Read more... )

FUCK YOU ::FLICKS OFF::

Its funny im always saying one of the reasons im such a camera whore lately is cause i regret not taking enough pictures in the past but i always used to have my video camera on me and most of my tapes are of matthew and ive been sitting all day alone in my room being depressed missing him , i cant stop crying , im pretty happy that i have mostly ( Read more... )

1. copy and post in your LJ
2. bold anythinig that is true
3. leave plain anything that is un true
4. add somethinig

01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I watch more tv than I used to
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I own lots of books.
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games.
08. I've tried marijuana.
09. I've watched ( Read more... )

I got off work about 15 minutes early , traci came and picked me up we went to dans house for the band rehearsal ("we cant practice what we already know , we can only rehearse what we already know " go rik haha ) then everyone was leaving to go to brains house so traci and i left a little early to get gas, so we stop at the 7-11 on hypoluxo across ( Read more... )

Summer i miss you ( Read more... )

it's 4 months to the date ,  it seems like just yesterday my phone was ringing at 6 in the morning with the horrible news i cant believe its been 4 months, today is my birthday and your not here to be with me , I'm moving out of the apartment i dont want to leave here it has so many memories with you and i dont want to leave that , I guess having ( Read more... )

Its fucking amazing when you very own parents forget your birthday the people who gave you life just seem to let it slip there mind , its pretty cute :) I;m happy about it, and its even better when people who i thought knew me better then i know myself forget my birthday too, its great ( Read more... )