FORSAKEN ( Read more... )

hey, what do you know, its been to fucking long once again. home is going alright, not quite what i'd hoped for, but its something. i guess since things haven't been radically different than maritime, i'm not as happy as i should be. i got a job at home depot. thats going really well. today was my first day running a till (wherever the fuck that ( Read more... )

i'm going out of my fucking mind, at least whats left of it. there are a million things running around my head, and all of them are trying to beat the world record for the mile. i want to just be able to relax, but i can't. i can't wait to get home. i just need to get there, relax, not have any fucking shit about maritime to worry about, find a ( Read more... )

obviously by the title and date its been a long time. alot has happened it that, i didn't talk for a week, i got shot down again (as if that wasn't a given anymore), i've avoid at least one gold and probably a few others that i was only vaguely aware of. its formal night and yes i've been drinking just like i said i would, and no i don't fucking ( Read more... )

as always its been a while. my room is freezing cause my pot head roomate keeps opening the window and putting a fan there. i got to go out on liberty today, which is something that doesn't happen very often. it was a decent time, spent time with a few of the mugs which is fine.i've got an essay due friday and a test on thursday, but i just don't ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do.i really hoped that the month at home would help clean up this depression, but it didn't. i've only been back for a week and it already seems like forever. this semester picked up exactly where the last one left off. i'm just as depressed, just as frusrated, just as tired. i was hoping that this year would somehow turn out ( Read more... )

i just want someone to love. that all i want and i would give all i have to find her. but its just not gonna happen

and even though the moment passed me by, i still can't turn away ( Read more... )

ok, so i only bothered with one tequila and a kaluha. its still nice though, although i can't drink much cause my parents'll notice shit is missing or getting low, even though they don't drink. i just don't feel like getting bitched out for like 2 hours by them so we'll keep the booze to a minimum at home. at school however, totally different story ( Read more... )

well, its offically new years eve. looks like espy and i will be heading to mill ave again this year. maybe this year well find some women to pick up. however, knowing our luck, both individually and when were together, i don't think so. since i'll be driving, drinking is out of the question. its alright, i've had plenty of fun without booze. i ( Read more... )