Comments | xandreax: i may seem okay, but it's only an act.

xandreax

i may seem okay, but it's only an act.

Aug 10, 2005 21:27

so i don't think i've spoken to dave in about a week. this is basically for no reason other than he currently can't be bothered remembering i exist. he did this after our visit last summer but not for as long. i really don't know whether or not i have it in me to keep doing this and if i do, i don't know how much longer i'll last ( Read more... )

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thetopdown August 11 2005, 02:10:07 UTC

I adore you. Does that help at all?

Seriously, though, sweetie... I'm here whenever you need me. 4407244189. Anytime.

mommalovesme August 11 2005, 02:45:39 UTC

know he isn't my boyfriend but if we love each other, we have this history, he still calls at 2am (when he calls), and he was in my bed not even two months ago. he acts like a boyfriend until he realizes he's acting like a boyfriend and then he's just gone in the blink of an eye.

AH. THATS EXACTLY IT> I FEEL YOU SISTER.

crispykatie August 11 2005, 16:39:08 UTC

haha oh andrea...I'm going through this period of my life where I don't think I know anything for certain...and I cry every day. It seems like it always has to be a boy to tip you in this direction (i don't mean you specifically of course). I think that we just have to keep in mind that life is mostly bullshit. All of this IS in our heads. No matter what you do you'll be fine.

xandreax August 12 2005, 00:57:11 UTC

thank you miss katie.
and you know what, i don't think i would even mind the crying so much, but my eyes burn always now. otherwise it kind of just feels good to not be holding things back. i am most likely finished with boys, though.