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[xandtheman3]

My dad was a drunk and an abusive asshole. Not as much to me directly. There was the screaming all the time but that was between my parents, and it was pretty clear he didn't like me ever.

I haven't missed him at all since falling through. Not even a little. Not even once.

I don't miss my mother either.

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[archangelet]

At least you knew he didn't like

At least you didn't waste most of your life trying to make him proud of

I'm sorry.

[Locked]

[xandtheman3]

Of all the damn secrets.

Seriously, Rift. There's the near-sex via about three different types of demons. Kicking ass against zombies when everyone called me the Zeppo, but no. This is what it goes with.

It's fine. Don't be sorry. I think I'm just afraid if I ever get involved with someone seriously to that extent then I'll be like

Woah, so did not mean to get that in depth about it.

Anyway, parents suck for a lot of people. It's not a big deal.

[Locked]

[archangelet]

Look, I know I fail at emotions and shit, but, I mean.

If you wanna talk, whatever. y'know? I won't kick your ass or anything. Not just about this, just... whenever.

I'm not big on admitting my issues and shit, but you're probably the one I'd tell here, if I needed to. Tell anyone, I mean.

[Locked]

[xandtheman3]

Look, I fail at them too and fail at talking about this. I never have before.

But thanks. I know you wouldn't.

You always can, Tay. I care about you, which means I'm here for the listening or the whatever. I know it sucks for you that you're back and away from where you were, but I'm glad you're here.

I missed you.

[please_see_me]

:(

That's really awful, about your dad. But I guess it's good you don't miss them, since you're here! I wouldn't miss my parents either, if they had been awful like that.

And now I'll bet you've got lots of friends here and as long as you've got people to lean on, that's all that matters, in the end!

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[xandtheman3]

It's seriously no big deal at all. Please, don't get all sad face about it. It's okay.

I'm sorry if you do miss your parents. It sounds like that's the case, and it must be harder like that.

Yep, I've got lots of friends and people. We're all in this together. That helps.

[locked]

[please_see_me]

Oh, well, that's okay, it's still awful, though!

And friends are really really good. They can help you get through anything.

[locked]

[thehighestwing]

You probably don't feel like talking to anyone, huh?

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[xandtheman3]

You know me well, Pheebs. And we're alike like that.

It's just not a big deal. Parents suck sometimes, you know? Everybody gets to experience that. I don't have to see them again or hear the screaming or hear the comments to me.

I just feel like I could

[arghhhhhhhhhhh. Rift.]

[locked]

[thehighestwing]

We kinda are. I don't know if that's a good thing sometimes.

They really, really suck. Some people are lucky and they get the not so sucky ones but it feels like most of the time they really suck. I can't regret them being parents tho, because you're here because of it! One good thing they did, at least.

You don't have to finish that sentence. You can tell me, if you want to tell me, when the Rift's not making you.

How about that hanging out thing we talked about?

[locked]

[xandtheman3]

I don't know either.

Yeah, there are a lot of them that suck. I get their human too or whatever, but- Hey, that is a very good of the positive way to think about it. Silver linings are all silvery when you look at it that way.

Okay. Thanks.

Yeah. I'd like that a lot. Movies and popcorn and cookie? We know how to roll.

[arrowblessed]

do you need a hug?

maybe?

[locked]

[xandtheman3]

Huh? No, that's not

You don't have to.

It's not a big deal. Some parents just suck.

[avoid, avoid, avoid serious subjects about yourself forever, Xander.] Just what the hell, Rift? Of all the secrets that it could have gone with. You know, there are some doozies in my life.

Could have talked about my massive comic book collection.

[locked]

[arrowblessed]

well I mean

if you did

I could.

[BUT OKAY she will roll with the topic change.]

what's your favorite series?

[locked]

[xandtheman3]

I know, Kenz.

Thank you.

I just

I don't do this with the talking about things. My own things.

[YAY ;_;.]

Batman. Hands down!

No superpowers but all the money. Makes me think if I had all the money, I could be a superhero too.

[isaywe_party]

[Buffy skips the journal and goes right for the Xander hugging. She will find him, and she will glomp him before saying]

That's why we make our own family.

[xandtheman3]

[Fwah, Buffy.

Xander never wanted to talk about it or have anyone know or bah. ;_;

He hugs her back. Tight. Chest is not hurting at all. Nope.]

I know.

You and the Scooby Gang have always been the family that's really mattered.

It was pretty lucky of me to pick up your stake that day.

[isaywe_party]

Yeah, it was.

[pulls back with a smile]

Don't know what I would have done without you.

[xandtheman3]

[smiles back]

I can definitely say the same.

So we both got lucky.