Deja - Vu

[xangelxofxhellx]

Title: Deja - Vu
Author: xangelxofxhellx
Summary: Dreams, depression, broken memories of a loved one.
Disclaimer: I own and feel all this grief.
Author Notes: Loss hurts.


Why is it that i look towards the future
And i have the feeling that i've been there already?
Why when i look into the past
I feel it does not belong to me?

Why when i search the memory of you
I feel you alive and here?

As i lay on my bed i feel you lay down beside me.
I wish i could see where you are,
I wish to know how you've been.
Are you the shadow on my wall
That crawls into this dark side of my soul?

Are you the presence that i feel
Behind my hopes and dreams?
You are not here.....
            .....you may not know......
                              ......but i love you......
 ~  You comfort me

You put at ease my restless soul.
I feel your soft fingers on my face
I feel your sweet touch upon my skin with so much joy....
I feel your hair caressing my cheek
When you lean in to kiss me goodnight.

You whisper "i love you" so softly to my ear
I smile and as i take in your scent
I reach out for you, open my eyes as i say "i love you too"
... But wait.......where are you?..... ~
- The End -

This agonizing deja - vu is haunting me
I now realize it could never be possible
To ever live something with you in this life time.
It would never be anything more then my sweet beautiful dream,
My damned torture
             ...my reminder of the past.

It could never be possible for us to feel  ....anything anymore
Because you are dead and i'm alone.