The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love, we will be unhappy.

I just had a dream that I got a couple messages on myspace from friends of Jason saying that he had died in Iraq a couple months ago. The cause of death: Jumping off a trailer while proposing to someone. (Yeah, it's a funny way to go ( Read more... )

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, ( Read more... )

On Tuesday, I'm meeting up with Jackie in Cumberland for my consultation or whatever for the tattoo that I plan to get next Saturday. I was to get it in time for my brother's birthday party Sunday (I LOVE pissing off my family).


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What is the point of making "friend's only" entries if someone is just going to be psycho and figure out a way to hack into my account to see what's going on with my life ( Read more... )

First I have to explain who Kevin is (I don't remember if I did or not). Last Monday while coming home from work, I had to drop something off at Boylston St so I went to Back Bay to take the train. I sat down next to this guy and we started talking. Then we sat together on the train. That is Kevin. He keeps asking me out but I only like him as a ( Read more... )

So Jason left a comment on my last entry. It's the first time I've heard from him and I don't feel like throwing up. Go me.

Yesterday, I went to Vasilios' house (the greek chef). All we did yesterday was eat pizza, watch the True Life marathon and listen to his bitch about his ex. Fun stuff.

So I went out with Brian last night and it was great as ( Read more... )

I had an arguement with Randy. Read it and tell me what you think.

sSoullesSshadowS: she smokes pot, drinks parties
CmnBrbiLtsGPrty3: well ill let you talk to them then
sSoullesSshadowS: all of that ^ ^
sSoullesSshadowS: o.O
CmnBrbiLtsGPrty3: oh sounds like a fucking winner
CmnBrbiLtsGPrty3: well ill let you talk to her
sSoullesSshadowS: it was really ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Brittanie!!

So things have been okay other than going to the hospital 2x in the past week. My room looks like a pharmacy because of all the antibiotics they gave me. I'm supposed to be okay now but they get the lab results in today for stuff (the did quick testing on Tuesday). Hopefully there's nothing else wrong.

Today was the first time (on a day that I went ( Read more... )