A BREAKTHROUGH

Apr 14, 2005 00:00

Finally, I think i had to actually get mad in order to feel better.. READ ITTTTT!!!!!
H WETSKiRT 832: hes so funny
H WETSKiRT 832: so innocent
H WETSKiRT 832: its kinda hot
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
SNdoubleOPG: ha....ha.....ha
SNdoubleOPG: yes talk about my best friend that way
SNdoubleOPG: varins kinda sexy too
H WETSKiRT 832: lol i was JK
SNdoubleOPG: i wasnt
H WETSKiRT 832: thank you
H WETSKiRT 832: i know she i
H WETSKiRT 832: s
SNdoubleOPG: good
SNdoubleOPG: i also heard about u wanting to hang out with just him
SNdoubleOPG: whats wrong with u
H WETSKiRT 832: nothing
H WETSKiRT 832: varin wanted me to and i thought itd be fun
H WETSKiRT 832: not like i wanted to hook uup with him lol
SNdoubleOPG: haha yeaaa cause that is funny
H WETSKiRT 832: y does it bother you?
H WETSKiRT 832: it doesnt mean anything
H WETSKiRT 832: hes my friend
SNdoubleOPG: no hes my friend
H WETSKiRT 832: well i talk to him
SNdoubleOPG: ive talked to a playboy centrefold
SNdoubleOPG: and im not her friend
H WETSKiRT 832: yea but hes helping me
SNdoubleOPG: well i cant help u
H WETSKiRT 832: what?
SNdoubleOPG: hes helping you
SNdoubleOPG: i said not my fault because i cant help u
H WETSKiRT 832: exactly so thats why ive been looking to him bc u dont seem to have the time to actually listen to me im sorry for looking for someone who actually cares and TRYING to move on
SNdoubleOPG: H WETSKiRT 832: not like i wanted to hook uup with him lol
SNdoubleOPG: haha yeaaa cause that is funny
H WETSKiRT 832: y does it bother you?
SNdoubleOPG: yes cause thatd be fun
H WETSKiRT 832: i wanst trying to hook up with him
H WETSKiRT 832: whats ur point?
H WETSKiRT 832: please tell me
SNdoubleOPG: why would u want to hang out with him
H WETSKiRT 832: just to talk and chill
SNdoubleOPG: well u said u have alotta friends so couldnt u hang out with them instead
H WETSKiRT 832: i am
H WETSKiRT 832: i just dont want to stop talking to him jusst bc we broke up
H WETSKiRT 832: bc hes a cool person
SNdoubleOPG: well u live 45 min apart
SNdoubleOPG: so good luck hangin out
H WETSKiRT 832: im not trying to make it an every weekend thing
H WETSKiRT 832: just trying to be nice
H WETSKiRT 832: i really didnt think it was a big deal
SNdoubleOPG: like what if i just wanted to hang out with varin just the two of us
SNdoubleOPG: or just me and cali
H WETSKiRT 832: i didnt think about that
H WETSKiRT 832: and im sorry
H WETSKiRT 832: but i just needed help
H WETSKiRT 832: to be honest
H WETSKiRT 832: ok i wasnt in a good place
H WETSKiRT 832: have you seen that shit ive been writing lately?
H WETSKiRT 832: i havent been happ
H WETSKiRT 832: y
H WETSKiRT 832: and today i finally just decided to just give up on everything
H WETSKiRT 832: i just wanted someone to actually care
H WETSKiRT 832: i wanted to cry to someone
H WETSKiRT 832: or just talk
H WETSKiRT 832: i didnt want anything eles
H WETSKiRT 832: i just needed help and i thought hed help bc he knows you
H WETSKiRT 832: do you feel better now? I NEEDED HELP TO STOP FEELING LIKE TOTAL SHIT SO I WOULDNT DO SOMETHING STUPID
H WETSKiRT 832: sorry caps lock
SNdoubleOPG: i havent seen the stuff uve written
SNdoubleOPG: no offense i dont think nile wants u crying to him
SNdoubleOPG: why do u feel like shit
H WETSKiRT 832: bc i feel like you dont care at all
H WETSKiRT 832: and i want you to
H WETSKiRT 832: just at least a little
SNdoubleOPG: alil
SNdoubleOPG: i dont want u to hang out with himi
SNdoubleOPG: isnt that alil
H WETSKiRT 832: i know u care but its just a lot of times u dont act like it tll this shit happens
H WETSKiRT 832: till something bad goes on
SNdoubleOPG: ok i will be
SNdoubleOPG: i didn say i wouldnt
SNdoubleOPG: i said that was up too you
H WETSKiRT 832: yea but you always get mad at me when im just trying to get over you
H WETSKiRT 832: im not trying to do anything to yu
H WETSKiRT 832: i mean i get jealous bc i know ur going to parties and hooking up with girls or whatever but i just have to get over it
SNdoubleOPG: well u think i felt great
SNdoubleOPG: when ur like all my friend want to hang out and party
SNdoubleOPG: and that shirt from cali
SNdoubleOPG: and u acted soo happy
SNdoubleOPG: and said some mean things
H WETSKiRT 832: bc i want you to think im happy
H WETSKiRT 832: i want you to think im ok
H WETSKiRT 832: but did you read that shit?
H WETSKiRT 832: im not happy
H WETSKiRT 832: im trying sooooo hard
H WETSKiRT 832: i finally have stopped crying
SNdoubleOPG: well i dont give a fuck about thinking ur happy
SNdoubleOPG: i want u to actually be happy
H WETSKiRT 832: its hard when the person you love doesnt want to be with you anymore
H WETSKiRT 832: im trying i really am
SNdoubleOPG: i want to be ur good friend
SNdoubleOPG: i mean u put too much on the title boyfriend a girlfriend
SNdoubleOPG: just change your love to me as a friend
H WETSKiRT 832: its hard bc i get jealous that ur not with me
H WETSKiRT 832: and i think of the worst things
SNdoubleOPG: well dont
H WETSKiRT 832: tomorrow will be hard bc im so used to being with you
H WETSKiRT 832: and i wnt to be able to be friends with benefits but i just think it hurts too much right now
H WETSKiRT 832: i wanted to cry the last time we had sex
SNdoubleOPG: yy
SNdoubleOPG: but insted u made fun of me for being short
H WETSKiRT 832: short?
SNdoubleOPG: for going early
H WETSKiRT 832: o
H WETSKiRT 832: i just dont want to act like i care
H WETSKiRT 832: even though i do
SNdoubleOPG: so u dont want to act like u cared even tho ur like god that was quick
SNdoubleOPG: even tho u did care that it was quick
SNdoubleOPG: ..ummmm ok?
H WETSKiRT 832: noooo
H WETSKiRT 832: lol ok that didnt come out right
H WETSKiRT 832: the reason i made fun of you so much that night was because i wanted you to think i didnt care that we were just friends when really i did
H WETSKiRT 832: i just want to be ok and im trying to force myself
SNdoubleOPG: hmm mi c
H WETSKiRT 832: im sorry
H WETSKiRT 832: i tried
H WETSKiRT 832: i try too much
H WETSKiRT 832: i feel like i have to put on this front bc u look so happy and like ur ok and it hurts
H WETSKiRT 832: it hurts me so much bc it doesnt seem like you feel anyhting at al
H WETSKiRT 832: l
SNdoubleOPG: i mean its easier to not care when u make me mad
H WETSKiRT 832: i try not to
H WETSKiRT 832: i just dont know what to say anymore
SNdoubleOPG: well i mean
SNdoubleOPG: if i could help in any way i would
SNdoubleOPG: but its sounds like i cant
H WETSKiRT 832: just talk to me
H WETSKiRT 832: thats all
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: i still want to see you just not so much
H WETSKiRT 832: i still want to hug you and maybe little kisses
H WETSKiRT 832: lets just not fight
SNdoubleOPG: lol
SNdoubleOPG: well dont give me reason to get mad
H WETSKiRT 832: i wont
H WETSKiRT 832: but you have to try to be nice lol pleeeeaaaaaase
SNdoubleOPG: lol i do try
H WETSKiRT 832: lol ok
H WETSKiRT 832: well ill be nice
H WETSKiRT 832: and u be nice
SNdoubleOPG: god u didnt even ask me to buy ur movie ticket!!!
H WETSKiRT 832: i know
SNdoubleOPG: ur just like i dont have money
H WETSKiRT 832: im seriously sorry
SNdoubleOPG: period
H WETSKiRT 832: ill pay you back i promise
H WETSKiRT 832: when you give me my purse ill give you a 20 and you can give me change ok?
H WETSKiRT 832: i really felt bad
H WETSKiRT 832: and i shouldve asked
H WETSKiRT 832: so im paying you back
H WETSKiRT 832: capish?
SNdoubleOPG: haha capish
SNdoubleOPG: but no its ok
SNdoubleOPG: i dont care
SNdoubleOPG: its just the principle
SNdoubleOPG: to ask
H WETSKiRT 832: yea
H WETSKiRT 832: sorry
SNdoubleOPG: i mean honestly i cant pay for u in future
H WETSKiRT 832: i know its ok
SNdoubleOPG: because im going out to lucnh everyday
SNdoubleOPG: so i have no money
H WETSKiRT 832: thats cool
SNdoubleOPG: ehh its ok
SNdoubleOPG: im just tired of school food
SNdoubleOPG: and its making me broek
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: yea im broke too dont feel bad
H WETSKiRT 832: im going to get a job soon
H WETSKiRT 832: hopefully
SNdoubleOPG: thats cool
SNdoubleOPG: u know where?
H WETSKiRT 832: tanning salon
H WETSKiRT 832: olive garden
H WETSKiRT 832: dunno yet
SNdoubleOPG: lol cool
H WETSKiRT 832: maybe the library with my cool gma just bc its close
H WETSKiRT 832: i feel better
H WETSKiRT 832: thnx
H WETSKiRT 832: ol
H WETSKiRT 832: lol*
SNdoubleOPG: haha feel better about.....everything?
H WETSKiRT 832: yea i guess
H WETSKiRT 832: just in general
SNdoubleOPG: good
H WETSKiRT 832: i think we needed that actually lol
SNdoubleOPG: lol prolly
SNdoubleOPG: but u better start eating again
SNdoubleOPG: how much u weigh now
H WETSKiRT 832: 112
H WETSKiRT 832: i like being skinny
H WETSKiRT 832: im going to eat better
SNdoubleOPG: ok lose weight the good way
SNdoubleOPG: not being depressed
H WETSKiRT 832: and excersize
H WETSKiRT 832: yea
H WETSKiRT 832: ill try
H WETSKiRT 832: people have noticed
SNdoubleOPG: well still
H WETSKiRT 832: i wore calis pant and they were SOOOOO loose and then she put them on and they were tight on her i felt so good lol
H WETSKiRT 832: pants*
H WETSKiRT 832: it was funny
H WETSKiRT 832: 3rd quarters over tomorrow
H WETSKiRT 832: so no school friday
H WETSKiRT 832: and varin might be spending the night
H WETSKiRT 832: so that should be fun
SNdoubleOPG: tahts cool
SNdoubleOPG: i could use a day off
H WETSKiRT 832: just stay home lol
H WETSKiRT 832: it wont kill you
SNdoubleOPG: lol no i cant
H WETSKiRT 832: lol ok i tried
H WETSKiRT 832: i havent been late since ive been at my gmas
SNdoubleOPG: thats good
H WETSKiRT 832: yea i guess
H WETSKiRT 832: but ive left
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: i still want to watch the oc with you occasionally
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: i got u into it
SNdoubleOPG: lol
SNdoubleOPG: yea but with tennis season i really cant
SNdoubleOPG: im only doing it at my friends because her house is close to school and i dont get off tennis till 7
SNdoubleOPG: but theres others there its not just us two!
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: well im not talking about all the time
H WETSKiRT 832: just once in a while
H WETSKiRT 832: like when ur NOT busy
SNdoubleOPG: yea
H WETSKiRT 832: which is almost never
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
SNdoubleOPG: with tennis tho
SNdoubleOPG: its gonna be ahrd
H WETSKiRT 832: yea
H WETSKiRT 832: nileis so naive
SNdoubleOPG: how so
H WETSKiRT 832: he wont get off the lesbian topic lol
H WETSKiRT 832: hes like so what do lesbians do?
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
SNdoubleOPG: lol
SNdoubleOPG: geeesh
H WETSKiRT 832: bc i told him i want to see what its like
H WETSKiRT 832: he started freaking out
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: hes like how when where lol
SNdoubleOPG: hahaha
H WETSKiRT 832: i wasnt even really that serious lol
SNdoubleOPG: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: i love virgins
H WETSKiRT 832: theyre so funny
SNdoubleOPG: lol
H WETSKiRT 832: so what ranking ar you in tennis now?
SNdoubleOPG: 4
SNdoubleOPG: 5
SNdoubleOPG: iounno
H WETSKiRT 832: lol
SNdoubleOPG: my elbow is killing my ranking
H WETSKiRT 832: have you gone to the doctors?
SNdoubleOPG: nah
SNdoubleOPG: i feel like a pussy because its tennis
H WETSKiRT 832: but still
SNdoubleOPG: but like 3-4 hours a day
SNdoubleOPG: of hittin hard
SNdoubleOPG: it hurts
H WETSKiRT 832: yea
H WETSKiRT 832: but you have to be careful bc if you keep straining it you might really hurt it and then not be able to play
SNdoubleOPG: yea im seeing trainer tomomrow
H WETSKiRT 832: good
H WETSKiRT 832: dont hurt urself lol
H WETSKiRT 832: i fucked up my ankle by not doing anything about it
SNdoubleOPG: ahh how
H WETSKiRT 832: with cheerleading and softball i got and overuse injury my freshmen year and i did do anything to make it better and so now my right ankle bone sticks out more and it hurts when i walk or just stand on it too long and i have to ice it when i play sports
SNdoubleOPG: ahh that sux
H WETSKiRT 832: yup
H WETSKiRT 832: so whats new?
SNdoubleOPG: hmmm
SNdoubleOPG: nm that i can think of
SNdoubleOPG: u?
H WETSKiRT 832: nothing really lol
H WETSKiRT 832: this is latest ive stayed up in a long time
H WETSKiRT 832: anyway i think i need to go back to being the lazy bum i am and go to sleep so i can actually wake up tomorrow
SNdoubleOPG: haha me too
H WETSKiRT 832: ill ttyl i hope your body feels better lol try not to be too good at tennis and then it might not hurt so bad
SNdoubleOPG: haha thank you im not good
SNdoubleOPG: but good night
SNdoubleOPG: tootaloo
H WETSKiRT 832: lol goodnight
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