So were on a break instead of a full on break up. It seems a lot better already but a little bit weird. Were trying take more time apart and spend more time with friends. I kinda know what Im doing this weekend but not sure. I know Ill probably be with Cali raising hell because thats what we love to do. Should be fun. I feel empty and powerless ( Read more... )

OhEmGee! The weather was soo amazing today. It seriously made my mood so wonderful. I love pretty weather, it just makes everything better! Tomorrow I probably wont be in school or Ill be late due to court. My moms trying to get us back again. Im not sure if I want it yet or not. There are good and bad things. My mom hasnt exactly been a perfet ( Read more... )

i fucking hate when lj deletes my entries.

Things are going a lot better now. Im on Jonnys computer right now :-). Hes going to Texas with Nile but Ill be alright. I get o be with my lovely family CAMPING! Hell yes... yea that was so totally sarcastic but Ill live. Were about to go to the river right now but Im just killing time while he takes a shower. That letter I wrote last entry was ( Read more... )

Dear Jonny ( Read more... )

Im trying not to care, Im not supposed to care. I dont want to care. A lot of people agree with me. I dont know what to do. I just want to act like nothings a big deal. Im sorry I want to be with you every day, every hour, every minute, every second. Im sorry Im a control freak and I want to have things my way, but youve gotta let me have it ( Read more... )

HAPPY 3 MONTHS JONATHAN PETERS! I LOVE YOU!

Im sitting on the computers in marketing and Ms.Kennedys ass is like right next to my head. EW! haha I have so much math homework to do at lunch but Ill be okie. Things have been ok, a little weird though. Its different staying at my gmas. Its just different. Im like never online anymore. Im not used to it yet. I love my gma though. I miss talking ( Read more... )

I sit back and stare into the darkness ( Read more... )

Once everything looks up, it all comes tumbling down again. I personally think my family is cursed. Someone fucked with the wrong person back in the day. No family should have to endure this much pain ( Read more... )